Hi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was at 165 for years and wanted to lose more weight. I started exercising/jogging for the first time ever and eating a LOT of protein. I also stopped drinking Pepsi. Right away I gained 10 pounds! My friend said it obviously has to be muscle, but now I just feel like crap about it and don't where to go from there. Oh yeah, and within the last year my loose skin is getting so much worse! UuUhHgGg ... I'm so blah...

Oh yeah, and my vitamin D is really low so I'm ordering the 50,000iu from Amazon to see if that'll help. I lost my insurance 2 weeks ago but will go to the doctor again in a few months to get my VitD levels tested again.

My stress has kicked in big time in the last 6 months, I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle, w/o losing!     I keep thinking I remember how to get back on track, it's just doing it.   I only cook for 1 again and that's half the problem, I don't like cooking for 1, so I just don't cook most the time, not when a sandwich or oatmeal will do.

I have gained about 30lbs back and I want them GONE again!   I know a huge part of this is lack of exercise, where did my good habits go?  

In the casket, along with my son, I think.  =(   

I know we will be hungry, but maybe we do have to go back to step 1 with the eating.  I still do not eat a lot, it's about what and the lack of exercise in my life.

I'm still here... not doing well, but here.  I have put back on so much weight and I don't know how to get back on track.  High stress life and high stress career have me resorting to old dangerous habits with food.