- HEALTH TRACKER
I walked down the hall and began my new life. One where I have had ups and downs on the scales, big & small victories, and my life improved immensely. I am not the same woman I was.
This year so much has happend that has changed my life. The pain of losing my dear ones has changed my focus in life. I am a stress eater- my brain didn't have surgery- my stomach did. I try to take care of my needs, and not focus on the fact that so much that I had hoped for will never be.I will never see my grandson wed, have children or become a fireman.
I can enjoy walking without a cane; I can exercise, and enjoy it; I am off 16 medications; I even parsailed in Hawaii this year~something I NEVER thought I'd do!!!!! I will never be a size 6, but I can be happy that I am no longer a size 26!!!!!
I think more of others, and how we need to live each day to the fullest. I think of all those who suffer as I have and just need a word of encouragement. I think of how to help others to believe in themselves and how important it is to forgive & forget. The small things don't mean as much to me. I focus on the treasures we have- I can do so much I never thought I could. I am working on myself and not trying to change others to suit me. I am less critical and more sensitive to others needs & feelings. I can accept that life isn't perfect, neither are people, but we CAN love each other, even if we don't like what their choices are.
I want to thank you all for loving me thru all of this- all of the changes I go thru are sifted thru God's hands. My faith in Him and belief is what carries me threw the storms.
I am so grateful for your support,friendship, & love.
BIG (((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) of gratitude & love,
It was am amazing event, & we are so glad we went. We had $450.00 in donations- thank you to all who supported us. We live everyday with the aftermath & stigma of suicide. I know that Nick was with us and encouraging us on. There were 20 of us walking for him & over 650 people in all. So many families & friends ,so many tears & much laughter!.
I was so blessed when Frankie & her girlfriend tapped me on the shoulder right after I had written a message on the walkway in remembrance of our boy. Thank you my dear friend for being there & supporting me. I really appreciate it, and it made me feel so cared for. You are an angel with tennis shoes on!
Today, my heart feels al ittle more healing, and peace. For that & so much more, I am grateful.