Don't me to hard on yourself Sherry, you can beat yourself up all day wondering why it so hard to cut back on food when you have overcome a big addiction as smoking, to me in my personal life food was an addiction, i needed it , it made me feel better, whenever you socialize there's always food involved and 9 changes out of 10 with everything put out there might be one veggie try the rest is always pertty fattening, i remember growing up in nfld, the dinners my mother would cook is unbelievable, it makes sense that nflder have the highest colerstral rate per capital in canada, everything is homemade and made with butter,,while it is yummy there are side effect and thus that is why we are here at this point in our lives, i decided to do this just over a year ago, and i am only a few days away from surgery, while i use to urge just drinking that protein shake i kept in my mind , i have to do this, thats it this is my last chance, everything else as failed for me, so i'm gonna suck back this shake and take it like a man..lol.. i wish you all the success and i can tell you want this so bad, so hang in there my friend, i have to ask, does the doctor now handling your file know you were on a waiting list in NB, is there anyway he can push you forward, just a though, either way your getting closer everyday,, msg me if you need any support or words of wisedom , its what i like about these forum boards we are all here for the same reason and all here to support eachother..
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