Post Date: 2/4/12 6:18 am I feel pretty crappy, too. Low motivation, low energy and generally feeling sorry for myself (although I try and think positive). I keep reminding myself that, "this, too, shall pass".
I'm barely getting any calories in...like maybe 450 a day and that's including protein shakes. This has to be majorly stressful on the body...and the body-mind connection is very real, so it makes sense that I am not at my best emotionally and mentally. I'm focusing on trying to follow all the rules and trusting that things will pick up in terms of energy over the next few weeks. I will say that I"m very glad that I had the surgery in winter since this is usually a low energy time for me anyways and I don't feel so bad about "hibernating" in the house all the time.
I think that some of it is psychological. The break up with food is so real, so extreme and so final...all at once. I've been driven by eating for my entire life and now, bam, the best friend is gone. I feel a bit abandoned, alone and unsure about how to move through the world without food as a crutch. I can see how much the surgery is a "head trip" and not just a physical thing. I've got stuff to work on, clearly.
Things will get better! Keep posting, Toni, and let us know how you are doing!
Sandy
Orientation- July 26th/11 Nurse- Sept.7th SW- Sept.14
Sleep test- Sept 16 Nut class- Oct.5 Psychiatrist - Oct 12, Nut- Oct.17th Surgeon - Nov.4 /11 Surgery January 18, 2012