wigging out!
Is this normal - does anyone have regrets? running out of time and I can't believe I am wavering now.
Anyway I did everything possible to occupy my mind before the surgery. I was afraid i'd back out. I've had multiple surgeries and knew it would hurt, and i'm afraid of needles, so I tried to not think about it. Worked for me. I made my decision weeks before the surgery and I kept working forward to get what I knew I needed. I don't regret a second of it.
Tho I did at first. I couldn't eat like I wanted to. I mourned food. I constantly watched food network...lol. Like an alcoholic watching beer.tv....lol.
I am so glad I did it. I am no longer on diabetes meds and I was on two and still didn't get my sugars under control. I am no longer on blood pressure meds and no longer on cholesterol meds.
I am having issues with warfarin and had issues in the past with an antibiotic but made it thru. So glad its in my past.
If you or anyone ever has any questions that you feel I can answer PM me. I'll gladly respond.
I do not regret my RNY. I wouldn't be alive today without it. I was there for my only granchilds birth this past week because of the RNY. There is no way I would have been able to attend the labor and delivery without the surgery.
I haven't had a perfectly easy time with it, but i'm still glad I did it at two years out!!!
I felt better after encouragement here, and a huge cry. Lol
I did it 2/15. So far so good.
Driving daughter to school bus day 7: off pain meds .
I can tell you that my biggest regret in having RNY was that I waited as long as I did. It is the single best thing I have ever done for myself. This time last year I was 100lbs bigger than I am today, and today I could not be happier.
Try to focus on all the things you have to look forward to in life and don't dwell on the "what ifs" like I did for so many years. It is so worth it!!!
I am having surgery in 48 hours and I would be lying if I said I didn't have my moments but what REALLY helps me is going through the boards and reading the posts of the members who are just home from surgery or recently had surgery - that makes me feel better about it - and I actually did think for a flash that I could do it on my own - but 46 years of not doing it on my own tells me other wise..... I want to live to see my grandkids and enjoy my life - not sit on a couch and get bigger and bigger and feel worse and worse - also read a post I think yesterday about all the reasons to have rny - and everyone of them fit me - I waver between can't wait and oh cr*p what have I done but I know I am doing the right thing and am going to just keep putting one foot in front of the other until I am laying on the gurney and getting the pre surgery ****tail.... I will see you on the other side
I hope your surgery went well and when you feel up to it - send a post.
Ann
I am struggling now with the liquid diet but that is just temporary (one week left) and no where near as stress-filled as the pre-surgery meltdown. But there really isn't anyone in my family who knows what I was going through so thank you all again - without you - and places like OH I really would be a mess.