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My weakness is food in general.  I realized just this past week, that I still am addicted to food in general.  My mind thinks I need to graze all the time.  I thought I had it under control, until my band needed tightening up for over 2 weeks, and my bad eating habits reated its ugly head.  Now I feel like Im starting over in trying to control the demon.  The people I work with dont help, or should I even say that, I dont help myself sometimes is the bottom line.  Just because they bring food to work, sweet yummy mtn dew cake, or strawberry cheesecake, or brownies, I know I shouldnt eat them, but I do!!   And since my surgery 11 months ago, I CRAVE ice cream allthe time.  I always have sugar free ice cream in the freezer, but its not the same.  I dont exercise enough, i know that if increase my exercise, i wouldnt be as bored, and I would have another outlet to replace the food but do I do it?  No, but I will.   I have to, otherwise my surgery, time and efforts will have been for naught.

can we do a food demon exorcism??  arghhhhhhh

Wow great thread Scott. One of my problems is stress/worry. I tend to worry about stress and then I stress out over worry. Ya'll know that saying....Don't worry until you have something to worry about..They ain't happening for me. As far as my foods, yes I still eat some of the stuff that I shouldn't and it is much easier, right now because I have very little restriction, due to not being able to get a fill and ya'll know the story behind that. But, that is going to change, I will be able to get a fill on 08/11, so I feel like that will jump/kick me back on track. I also, posted as soon as DH gets is "date" and starts the 2 week liquid diet, I'm going to do that with him. We both go to the store, but I stay away from my bad foods, but somehow they tend to find their way in our buggy. It has to be DH, I say no, he says but I want some, then when we get them home, we both eat them. It's like I have the control while we are shopping, but once they are in this house, it's fair game. It
is not so much sweets, but potatoes,bread,crackers,pasta, etc. I just have to figure out a way of saying no here at home like I do in the store. OR better yet, he can start saying no in the store too...(HINT..HINT.. I Love You Honey) We have had several "discussions" right in the middle of isle's at the store. I will be reading labels and putting stuff back because of the "high" numbers they have in it and then he will come behind me and toss it in the cart. This is just yet another bump in the road for me and soon DH will see that too and start making better choices. He has almost cut out his diet drinks and is trying to do the no drinking with and after meals.


Cheryl

Cheryl

::: stepping up to mic::::  blowing into mic::::"IS THIS THING ON?!"

Umm Hello.  My name is Melinda.  I'm a recovering fatty.  I mean, I used to be overweight.  On the outside, my body is thin.  But at heart, I'm still obese.  And, whats more, I still love and enjoy food very much.

OK Now I feel better.  Confession is good for the soul.   

Now this is what our support forum used to look like.  I recognize this one.  I feel at home again.  With people who struggle just like me, and I don't have to pretend that everything is just fine and dandy as sugar free candy. 

Let me also give another confession.  Sometimes when we all go out to eat together, I purposefully push my plate back and hardly eat because I am afraid of what you all think of me.  I tell  Tim, "I won't eat much."  Him:  I know.  "I won't touch your dessert."  Him:  I know.  "I will probably have to go get something to eat after we leave here."  Him:  I know.   Why do I do that? Now I'm not saying that I eat a bunch of junk.  Or that I eat a lot.  I just feel stressed out when we all get together, feeling afraid that people are watching what I eat.  I still don't like even eating with a group of people for fear they are scrutinizing my every bite.

I like reading other people's "stage" of where they are.  It brings back a lot of memories.  I know what you are saying, BamaBob, about not wanting to eat food.  There was a time when I could NOT eat, smell or even talk about food when I had the stricture.  It made me want to vomit.  I was one sick puppy.  But even after it was fixed, I didn't want to eat.  Later, after my gallbladder removal, I didn't want to eat anything either... nor after plastics.  I had to force myself to eat food, or drink protein.  Protein shakes were sickening to me at that point.  I got down to 116 lbs and one friend said to me "that picture of you looked like a crack dealer."  Well thanks! LOL

I get concerned sometimes when people talk about how they don't want any solid food at all and resort to ONLY shakes... cause now I can see what our nuts talk about:  getting in solid food.  We do need to learn how to eat solid food again.  Now we'll probably need protein shakes/supplements (yogurt, etc) forever due to malabsorption...  but I know some people who live on protein shakes at 3 yrs postop....  not just one or two a day but like 5 & 6 a day!  That's scary.  I'm rambling but thanks for sharing!