Baboo
It's ok to be honest. We are here to support you. And yet also part of that support is to help guide one another back to the right things, or the things that will help us in the longterm. You're still struggling with the postop life, and rightly so. You just had your surgery a few weeks ago. We cannot expect you to know all the rules AND abide by them all, YET. LOL.
Admitting your problem areas is wonderful because you see there is a problem. You have listed them all down for yourself to refer back to later. Now, one by one, begin to work at correcting those problem areas. I confessed that I was having a hard time taking my iron pills. One missed pill... that's all it took... and then I found myself off track. I was sharing just yesterday with a lady how if you are reading and following directions to get from Point A to Point B, let's say you turn one block before you are suposed to. You're still in the general vicinity of where you need to be... but then suddenly, you drive and drive, until you are 10 miles away from your destination and wondering "How on earth did I get here?" What helps is to say "this doesn't look right for some reason..." and turn around. You are doing just that: quickly making a turnaround! Wonderful. You won't be too far off track! That one little missed iron pill took me to a place I didn't expect to find myself...
But, all it took was for me to pick that pill bottle up out of the basket, take it to work and put it right in front of my computer monitor. I see it now every morning when I get here, and take my iron pill for the day. Problem solved. One by one, every point you made on your list, work towards corw every morning when I get here, and take my iron pill for the day. Problem solved. One by one, every point you made on your list, work towards cor have faith in you. YOU CAN DO IT!