A Fat Size 6!
I completely understand this. I am 5'10" and I've pretty much always been a size 6, but recently after gaining control of my wine addiction (thank you Holy Spirit) I've gone from 135lbs to 127 lbs on a good day, but still I look at my body in deep consternation trying to figure out where it's all gone or if I'm existing in some surreal spiritual smoke and mirrors twilight zone dimension, that is until I looked up height and weight for supermodels and discovered I could conceivably drop another 10 in order to lose the bothersome unsightly last 7 pounds of subcutaneous fat. We size 6's have no empathy, cannot commiserate with other depressed size 6's on Facebook for fear of a public lynching, all the while understanding the difficulty in going from a 10 to a 6 is most likely just as difficult as going from a 6 to a 4 so as to remove the last bit of unsightly flesh. No one has any empathy, and the worst part is slipping on that size 6 skirt and the spare pockets of fat hanging over the rim, reminding you of your lack of fitness, and still knowing that you're on the cusp which causes even more angst knowing being so close still no reward. I think Satan knows the same, the elites, hence the BMI so high. Meaning I would nearly right now appear underweight on a government chart, but no I am not. My perfect weight is 119, 120 lbs most probably. Satan has everyone fooled. I can't believe I ever thought I was relatively fit at 135 lbs, no it's kind of all or nothing.
It has been a little over two years since I began this journey and I too said I just wanted to be a size 7 never thought I could get there......
Well I have been a size 4 now for over a year and still feel fat when I look in the mirror I still see the same fat person I was like you said just a little smaller. I cannot relate when peoplesay my gosh you are so tiny now and people that didn't ever know me fat can't believe I was ever a fat person they say you must have been born with good jeans.
I know when I do the laundry or look at clothes in the store and I pick them up I say this could not possibly fit me and then it does only when I actually get it on it looks bigger.
I am not sure if my brain will ever catch up with my body I can only hope it does I think I was a fat person for so long I think I will always be that fat person I sure hope not.
Anyway just wanted you to know you are not alone and I can totally relate.
Best wishes skinny lol
Cheers
MO
But now that I'm further out, some of that "squish" has firmed up. Exercise helps this a LOT, but it does take time. You aren't all that far out from surgery-- your skin will continue to adjust over the next few months or even a year after stabilizing your weight.
I found that I needed to focus on what I liked about my body instead of all of it's faults. I don't have a "perfect" body and I never will, and I am truely fine with that. But it was a process to get to this point. I didn't happen over night just because I lost 100+ lbs.
I have come to realize that the vast majority of women, regardless of their weight, lack ther "perfect" body. Even those who I think have great physical features often only see their own flaws and not their strengths. So I decided that I will look for styles that look good on me rather than feel bad that certain styles don't look good on me. The fact of the matter is, not all styles look good on everyone and I have finally come to accept this.
What you are experiencing right now is the post-weight-loss let-down. For some of us it takes a little while to fully grasp the realities of being thinner. It's not always everything we thought it would be. But if you work on focusing on the positives, it does get better (and better and better).
~Rana
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=juR8DoshsUk
Starting weight: 231; Goal weight: 140; Lowest weight: 117;
Current weight: 137 - 140
But, if you look around at lots of thin people...do many really have the perfect/model body? NO! Some have flat butts, football shoulders, extra wide hips, too big boobs, too small boobs...on and on...blah...blah. Everyone has parts they would like to tone up or change all together. As women we need to embrace our health and realize we are 'perfect' in a sense...we are the creature God created us to be with the shape the He wants us to have. Being healthy and being fit are two separate things...concentrate on being both...getting your exercise and nutrition up to speed and I bet the loose skin will follow and tighten up. AND, if it doesn't - is it the worst thing? No Baby...you are a beautiful woman! Embrace yourself and your achievements! I admire you.
Teri in Tennessee
When I started out 1.5 years ago I wore 2x shirts & size 22 jeans. Today I wear Medium shirts & size 6 jeans. The yoga pants I'm wearing today are size small. Adjusting our minds to accept us is hard work. I sometimes think I'm just a smaller fat person, but really I am small in comparison to 86 pounds ago.
I mainly know "normal" sized women. They complain about the exact same things we do. I've known size 2 & 4 women who think they're fat. When I was fat and heard their woes I'd think to myself they were insane in the membrane! I could see their ribs but they saw fat. To me, their clothes looked like children's clothes.
Nowadays, I can feel bones that were hidden for years under layers of fat. So while I lost the weight, I did not lose the sense of fat, which afterall, I carried for many, many years. I know with time I'll get there and to be honest, it truly is getting better with time.
RE: the flab, exercise may or may not help, but it will help you feel better about you.