Don't feel shame! You deserve this tool as much as we all do! I am sorry some person in an office somewhere who doesn't even know you is controlling your life. It's not fair, and you have every right to ask for prayers, good thoughts, etc. I will be thinking of you and hang in there!
Waiting is so hard. We hope you hear soon. While you are waiting here are links to some information you may find helpful:
Best wishes for a speedy approval!!
sending you positive vibes. you deserve to have the surgery.