Body image

Yesterday I got a new body shaper.  It is a medium.  I took it out of the package and thought, "There is no way I will ever fit into this."  But, I do.  It fits well and looks great.  It kind of blows my mind.  I'm 6 lbs away from my goal of 101 lbs (orginally it was 100 lbs, but at 101 I will finally have a normal BMI).  My 6 month surgiversary is tomorrow.  I hope that some day I can look at myself and not see Fat Sarah anymore.

Another strange thing...I now have a couple friends/acquaintances who never knew Fat Sarah.  That is a little strange for me too.  This new me doesn't really feel like me. 

I know what you mean.  Even as a guy, I am surprised that I can fit in the jeans and shirts I am wearing.  It is still somewhat surreal that I am close to being normal weight.

Congratulations!

I definitely have some body image (dysmorphia) issues.  I think it takes time.  I have now been this size for about 6 months, but I still see myself as big.  As I see myself in the mirror and pictures more I can see it slowly shifting.  We were big for so long -- it makes sense that that is ingrained in us a bit.  

I'm 3 1/2 years out, and it did take some time for my self image to regulate, but it did.  I would find myself sizing up spaces to try to determine if I'd fit through, looking at clothes and saying "no way", when they actually fit.  Over time, I began to see myself as being a normal size.  I've heard it takes longer for your head to catch up with your body, but eventually it does.  I too have some aquaintances now who never knew "fat Mary", and it does feel strange, but kind of good at the same time!

I'm a year out and wear a sz 6 jean and s shirt.  I still look in the mirror and see fat flaws.  No one else sees them.  I know it's my head.  But it's real to me.  It's really interesting because when I was at my biggest I always thought I looked better than photos proved I looked...but now I prefer a photo to a mirror.