- HEALTH TRACKER
I HAVE to keep telling myself that "I WILL NOT gain it back!" luckily my cravings stay pretty in line. I CRAVE tomatoes, pickles, mexican food (pico de gallo)--weird stuff--don't even really care for the sweet stuff that I used to crave. That stuff makes me nauseated most of the time now. But you are right...it's early in the game, but I know I HAVE to stay focused and strong! I can never go back, you know....
Yesterday was my one year anniversary since my surgery. I can't tell you how glad I am that I had the surgery. I have lost 78 lbs (83 lbs was my goal) and I feel wonderful!! There are so many things that have changed in my life. I started living life in a whole different way. I don't do "formal" excercise such as working out in a gym or running 5 miles a day--but I do so much more than I ever have in my life. My most rewarding activity is hiking. I could have never hiked uphill up a mountain or waterfall before now--but it is now my new passion. Although I am a novice--I look forward to spring to try out my new passion in warmer weather. (One thing that has changed for me is that I cannot STAND the cold weather! I have been freezing this winter with no added insulation!!)
I also love, love, love to shop! I go once a week to the local Goodwill and stock up on all my new clothes. We have a FABULOUS Goodwill near my house and once I grow out of a size I take them back as a donation and go to the next size. I went from a 22 to a 12 and by the time I lose the last 5-7 lbs, I should be in a size 10. This is perfect for me. I am really starting to have some skin issues so I don't want to loose too much more.
What do I eat now? I don't count calories, carbs, protiens, etc. I don't "diet" -- I eat pretty much what I want, which is mostly lean meats, veges, no fried foods or high fat foods and bites of anything else that I want. If I want potato chips, I'll take a few bites of chips and leave them alone. If I want some cake, I take a couple of bites of cake and I'm done. If I cook pancakes for the kids, I take a couple of bites and find something else that is better for me. I drink a good bit of water, but also drink tea or coke or whatever every now and then. I had to get away from the protein shakes and greek yogurt for a while--I was starting to gag after a few sips or bites...just could not handle that stuff anymore--but I plan to start back on protien in the morning with a greek yogurt daily. I want to tone up and get those last few pounds off so that I can maintain between 150-160. I have continued to lose weight since the surgery--although it has been very slow the last couple of months--about 3-4 lbs/month.
Last but not least, I finally have my sense of "self" back. When I used to look in the mirror and wonder WHO is this person who feels so helpless and miserable in her own body?? But now I love my looks and I feel like I am out of that prison! Sometimes, though, I feel like--is this a dream?? Am I going to wake up and be obese again?? I just feel so good and so beautiful and like there is nothing that I can't do--I know that I will never let myself get over 160 lbs again. I panic if the scales say 158 instead of 156. I'm lucky that i haven't had any real psych issues to deal with. My body image has always been good and I haven't really missed the food that much. Sometimes I do wish that I could just eat a WHOLE plate of....something, but once I start getting full--I don't miss any of it.
For those before me--you know what all this means--for those after me--your day will come. It's the best thing I've ever done for myself. I just wish that I had done it years ago. I am going to have to have my gallbladder removed as soon as things get right at work so I can have a couple of weeks off--this is new since the surgery, but otherwise I am in great health and LOVE LIFE!!