- HEALTH TRACKER
So Monday was my birthday and I went out with my cousin and a friend who just had the sleeve and lost 30lbs in 3 weeks might I add. Let me start by saying I can't stand going anywhere with them because NO men EVER appoach me. I don't know what it is that men are looking for, it honestly baffles me? Granted I'm overweight but I have a very attractive face, I always smell great, dress to impress and yet I'm never approached. It hurts my feelings because it leaves me wondering what do they have that I don't. I'm very outgoing and a peoples person, so what can it be? Can men sense my insecurity or low self-esteem? I'm too the point where now I don't care to do anything because what's the point? Why go out and watch others be approached and have fun, I'd rather stay home and feel accepted not rejected. I'm tired of putting my life on hold behind my weight. My mind tells me everything will be different once I loose this weight but will it really?
7stents (2003)...Heart Attack(2004)...Open Heart (2004)....Wls (2007)...Heart attack 2012...1 stent (2012)...Heart Attack (2013)...Heart Attack (2013)...1 stent(2013)
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My biggest worry is that I will carry these feelings into my wls journey. I'm scared that I won't be able to handle the attention since I have never been skinny. All these things cross my mind so often. I have approached men but they always end up putting me in that friend zone or as the funny fat girl which is not cool at all. I just want to be appreciated for just being me sometimes, flaws and all.