I just need to vent a little. I don't understand why I've been all kinds of negativity, especially from my own family. I hate even going around them anymore. For the last 4 years I've hidden behind long dark hair because I hated what I saw in the mirror, I'm finally starting to like what I see again so I decided to get a cute shorter style and some highlights. I love it and everyone I've seen since then has commented on how nice it looks, but the first time I saw them I just got blank stares, no comments. They didn't say it looked bad or good, nothing. I'll be starting my student teaching on Monday and with the exception of 3 close friends noone knows that I got the surgery done the week after last semester ended and I haven't seen any of them. So the only comment I got was, I bet the only reasn you did this was to get even more attention when you go back to school next week, don't go getting all conceited.
I'm getting really frustrated. Yes I'm proud of myself, at the end of last semester I was wearing a size 28 and I had to buy all new pants for student teaching size 18. That's a huge deal I haven't worn a size 18 since high school (11 years ago). But my mom, the one making these comments wears like a size 9 and has never worn anything bigger, so it can't be jealousy. She's constantly trying to sabotage my new lifestyle as well. It's gotten to the point that I avoid stoppig over at meal times because it turns into a fight. She tries to convince me that just 1 piece of fried chicken or just 1 piece of pizza won't hurt and how much damage can some chocolate do? I get so irritated because I've worked really hard to get to this point. I don't rub it anyones face and I don't talk about unless someone asks how much I lost or how it's going.
I've also been asked on a date, which she agreed to babysit for (I've been a single mom for 4 1/2 years) and this was my first date in over 3 years. When he asked me on a second date, she told me no that I needed to focus on my child and not be dating. UGH I don't, and never have asked her to babysit more that 2 or 3 times a year I spend 24/7 with my child because he hasn't see his father in nearly a year, I don't know how I could be more dedicated or focused.
Well there's my rant. I know others have gone through this and there are relationship changes I just don't know how to handle it!