I deserve this

Queen JB
on 1/18/18 4:50 am
RNY on 07/20/15

I have been musing all morning about the statement, "I deserve this". It was running through my head all night and I thought some of you may relate...

A little background: I am almost 10 years out from my original surgery. After complications, I revised to RNY 2.5 years ago. I consider myself a "rules follower" and have been a very compliant patient for the better part of the last decade. I stay low carb, high protein, and choose my "treats" very carefully. I have had a little bounce back regain (about 5lbs) but I am still below my original goal.

I don't usually consider myself a stress eater. I think of myself as more of happy eater! I choose my "off plan" treats as part of celebrations and fun events, and try to live a somewhat balanced life, while recognizing that I still have issues with moderation. I have had weeks when I have gone too far, but I am usually pretty good about reigning myself back in.

But this week has felt different. I have had a lot of work and personal stress, and last night I caved in and ate a box of peppermint patties that I had hidden in the house after Christmas. I kept saying to myself, "I deserve this". And even though I knew it was a bad idea, I caved and ate them.

The thing is, I don't deserve this...

  • I don't deserve things that are bad for me, for temporary pleasure.
  • I don't deserve to feel guilty for days, because of bad choices.
  • I don't deserve to be unhealthy.

I am really going to try to remember all these feelings the next time I reach for something off plan due to stress, and remember that when I hear the words, "I deserve this"--what I really deserve is health and happiness!

  • High Weight before LapBand: 200 (2008)
  • High Weight before RNY: 160 (2015)
  • Lowest post-op weight: 110 (2016)
  • Maintenance Weight: 120 (2017-2019)
  • Battling Regain Weight: 135 (current)

TheRealMeWithin
on 1/18/18 4:58 am - Canada
RNY on 06/02/17

great post!!! You DO deserve health & happiness.

Thanks for sharing :)

Surgery Jun.2/17 at TWH ----- HW 215 - SW 197.2 - GW 125 CW 124.6

Pre-Op=8.8lbs --- Optifast= 8.4 (was on it for 9 days due to cancellation)

M1 - 20.6... M2 -10.2... M3 -8.0... M4 -5.8... M5 -9.0... M6 -5.2... M7 -7.0... M8 -2.2... M9 -0.9... M10 -2.6... M11-0.6... M12-2.0

https://trendweight.com/u/6ffd55753da24d/

supershopper
on 1/18/18 5:24 am

I can't agree more. I struggle with this on an hourly basis. and some food are just way more harder to resist. I did have some proyo yesterday and logged it. It has high SA's in it so I rarely have it - makes me hurt like anything if i have too much.

HW 305 SW 278 Surgery weight 225 GW 160 LW: 118.8

RNY 12/15/2015,

GB removal 09/2016,

Twisted bowel/hernia repair 08/2017

M1 Dec 2015-13.0, M2-7.0, M3-14.5, M4-9.4, M5-7.1, M6 9.8, M7-7.6 ,M8- 7.6, M-9 5.5, M10-6.4, M11- 2.2, M12 Dec 2016- 5.8

(deactivated member)
on 1/18/18 5:29 am

Heck yes.

Yes we all do deserve health and happiness.

Gina 21 Years Out
on 1/18/18 6:17 am - Burleson, TX

JB - what a fabulous, thought provoking post!!!

I used to keep "goodies" around, to "test" my "willpower"...How stupid was I ???? Did I wind up eating them ???? Of course I did !!!!

We DO deserve to be HAPPY and HEALTHY !!!!

If we can learn to talk, to ourselves, the way we would talk to our best friend, when she/he was struggling, we would all be better off

RNY 4-22-02...

LW: 6lb,10 oz SW:340lb GW:170lb CW:155

We Can Do Hard Things

Liz WantsHealthForAll
on 1/18/18 6:26 am - Cape Cod, MA
VSG on 03/28/16

Thank you for this JB. We all need to remember your points:

  • I don't deserve things that are bad for me, for temporary pleasure.
  • I don't deserve to feel guilty for days, because of bad choices.
  • I don't deserve to be unhealthy.

Liz 5'3" HW: 219 SW: 185 GW: 125 LW: 113 Desired maintenance range: 120-123 CW: 120 (after losing 20 lb. regain)!

pammieanne
on 1/18/18 8:03 am - OK
RNY on 05/16/16

I think I might print these words out and put them on my desk at work, and on the fridge (and pantry) at home! I really needed to read this today!

The thing is, I don't deserve this...

  • I don't deserve things that are bad for me, for temporary pleasure.
  • I don't deserve to feel guilty for days, because of bad choices.
  • I don't deserve to be unhealthy.

Height 5'5" HW 260 SW 251 CW 141.6 (2/27/18)

RNY 5-16-16 Pre-Op 9lbs, M1-18.5lbs, M2-18.1lbs, M3-14.8lbs, M4-10.4lbs, M5-9.2lbs, M6-7lbs, M7-6.2lbs, M8-8.8lbs,M9-7.8lbs, M10-1 lb, M11-.6lbs, M12-4.4lbs

Kathy S.
on 1/18/18 8:21 am - InTheBurbs, XX
RNY on 08/29/04 with

Sadly my friend the self loathing and self hate we obese people live with is the reason we were overweight to begin with. No matter how far out we are or how successful, that ugly food devil sitting on our shoulder pops up during our most stressful times and tries to break us! Stay strong and KEEP REPEATING WHAT YOU TYPED!

  • I don't deserve things that are bad for me, for temporary pleasure.
  • I don't deserve to feel guilty for days, because of bad choices.
  • I don't deserve to be unhealthy.

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HW:330 - GW:150 - MW:118-125

RW:190 - CW:130

Ginnny
on 1/18/18 9:09 am - Ontario, Canada
RNY on 04/11/16

Great! Now I want a hamburger!!

Over 100 lbs lost! and 13 lbs below goal weight!

Kathy S.
on 1/18/18 10:05 am - InTheBurbs, XX
RNY on 08/29/04 with

Sorry

HW:330 - GW:150 - MW:118-125

RW:190 - CW:130

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