My wish for you is that you PM me your phone number so that I call you and tell you personally just how freak'en well you are doing!  OMG, you are doing all the right things!  I live in Mexico, I used to live in Phoenix, but today I have unlimited minutes for US phones AND MX phones.

You are NOT a bad girl and you never have been a bad girl.  YOU have a disease, NOT a character flaw!

I only wish I was there to tell you in person!

Look, Dar'len, we do not process carbs the same way as non ops.  We do things differently.  You are good, you are doing things the right way.  This will work, give yourself credit where credit is due.

 
So I moved to another country.  I packed  my stuff and put most of it in storage in Phoenix.

I can't eat huge quantities of food but I can darn sure buy large quantities of food.  That did the trick for me for a long time.  Those days are over.

My chest freezer is in storage.  I MUST buy LOTS of food.  I have nowhere to put it.  I can't take it anymore.

This month, I am going back to Phoenix so I can bring my beloved chest freezer home and put heavy stuff on top of the lid so I can keep it closed when it's full to the brim.

If I can't eat it, I must buy it.  If I can't buy it I go loco.

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH