- HEALTH TRACKER
I will beat myself up here.
I had my surgery July 1, 2010. I think I have had the EASIEST RNY ever. No gas pains after surgery.. no real trouble with food... the weight has simply fallen off. Sounds great, right?
I lost my job (and my medical insurance) shortly after surgery. Losing my job (and being unable to find another one) caused me to fall into a depression. I let myself become the worst WLS patient EVER. EVER! I stopped taking my vitamins. I stopped working out. I stopped caring what I put in my mouth. I stopped getting out of bed.
What the heck is wrong with me?! Didn't I have this surgery to get healthy? I really didn't have this surgery just so I could fit into a size 4 jeans. Now, I am coming out of my depression (which was silly to begin with.. my life is GREAT.. I have no reason to be depressed in the first place) and I am terrified that I have doomed myself to a fate worse than being morbidly obese. I did this to myself.. I know this. I am trying to get back on track. I have started taking my vitamins again. I started working out again. I am much closer to the correct diet now. (Still not perfect, but I am trying). It's not that I regret having surgery, it's that I was too ... (lazy, ignorant, down right STUPID) to follow the rules that I KNEW I had to follow to be successful. No.. I can't really claim ignorance.. I KNEW what the rules were. It's long past time for me to stop throwing myself a pity party and just get with the program.
I am terrified that I am too late. I would gladly gain back half of what I lost in exchange for to ability to take back what I have no doubt done to my body. I need to find a way to get to a doctor and at LEAST have some labs done, but I don't even know where to start since I still have no job/no medical.
Has anyone else been in this situation? Gotten depressed (or whatever) and just completely neglected themselves? Were you able to reverse any damage that you may have done? The things that concern me the most are iron (I have always been anemic, even before surgery) and calcium.
Here is what I am taking daily now:
I take a Centrum Performance multi in the morning with 2 calcuim/vitamin D tablets.
Lunch - two more calcium/vitamin D and sublingual B12 complex
Around dinner: 2 more calcium/D tablets and another Centrum Multi
Just before bed: vitamin C chewable (which I HATE) and (about 30 minutes later) three 27 mg tablets of Ferrous Gluconate iron tablets.
Is there anything else I should be taking? Honestly, I feel pretty good physically... no problems except occasional constipation and I was getting dizzy sometimes when I stood up too fast (probably the low iron?)
Thanks for reading this and thank you in advance for any advice.