Lyndsay, we all go through it hon! That is why there is the support groups and forums. I also "mourned" food loss. I have also had a hard time learning how to cope with other aspects of my life when I cannot turn to food as a mechanism. However, the 150 lbs I have lost have more than made up for that. Maybe your hubby could be a little more supportive though and not be eating your favorite things while you are trying to adjust. My hubby was very supportive and would try and avoid all the "junk" things I loved and couldn't have, while I was around. After the first 4 months or so, it does get much easier. You will be able to eat "regular" food and will begin to feel much more normal. I even began to treat myself to Taco Bell tacos after a year. I can only eat one instead of five, but hey at least it is a taco. You will be able to eat those "treats" again, but you won't be able to eat them in the same quantities as before and that is the reason we were fat to begin with right? Overeating and eating the wrong things? Hang in there, you are gonna make it and be okay. Good luck to you and happy holidays!