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Hello all. Just wanted to post about my little guy. He will be 5 in March and we have been waiting since June to get his diagnosis. From all the people who have seen him they say it looks like he has PDD/NOS or high functioning autism. I always new there was something different about my son but he has great language (even before speech therapy) and I just thought he was a little behind. I feel like I have failed him for not getting him help sooner. He is in a special needs pre-school now because of the speech delay but he only started in December. I feel so lost. I try to learn as much as I can but it's all so overwhelming. Most days I love my son so much that I could just explode and feel so blessed that he is mine. Other days I wish he weren't mine. I know that's harsh but I am sure you all know what I mean. I am still dealing with a lot of grief and guilt. Until he is officially diagnosed, there is not much available to me as far as parenting classes or respite care. I found a support group but I have to work when they meet. I know my son has so much to learn and overcome. I also know that he has so much to teach me. He has made me see my glass as half full instead of half empty. God gave him to me for a reason. I hope I will do right by my son and get him all the help I can. Thanks for listening. Any comments, advice or encouragement would be greatly appreciated. God bless you all and your loved ones with special needs!!!