Post Date 3/18/06 11:58 pm
Topic: RE: HOW DO YOU HANDLE THE STRESS?
First of all let me say congratultions on your surgery. I will say a prayer that all is well. Faith my little girl is 11 in years and about 7 or 8 in age. Like your son she is as loving as a kitten when she can be. I keep telling myself that if I think it's bad on me just imagine what it is like being her. She is actually asperger (high functioning). She is very hyper and that's where the problem comes in most of the time.
We went to a wedding tonight. She was wonderful during the ceremony, then when we got to the reception she was ready to eat the cake and she meant now!!Lol I tried to calm her and to explain to her the order of things but oh no. We finally had to excuse ourselves and go home.
Immature on my part I admit but I was a little angry that we had to leave yet another function because of autism.
I feel so guilty because I have it better than some parents and feel I have no right to complain.
I try my best to not compair her to other children but there again it's hard not to when my niece who is 6 can dress herself completely potty trained and acts age appropriate and my 11 year old can't.
I think I am just having myself a big ole pity party. I'm dealing still with the guilt (did I do something to cause this) the greif(what happen to the normal child I was suposed to have) and some days the just plain ole I don't want this anymore. God forgive me. My husband is so good with her. He has the patience of job with her and I don't. How can that be? She is flesh of my flesh.
Will it get better with age or worse? We have her in special-ed for math only. She is very smart. All she has to do is hear something and she knows it. Like history, science, spelling but poor baby can't add 2+2. We have her in therapy- one on one and group. I am clueless to what else we can do for her. I have wanted to ask, if she will grow to be a self-sufficient adult one day, but am terrified of the answer. Some days I say ofcourse she will and others I don't know. Pam