Not that things are terriable really. But as I read in the post previously to this...well some of the replies, we are are in one of the toughest battles. I know that I will conquer! But ok, this week, since being back ho e from my honeymoon, it has been hard to just pop back in the grind that I need to be in or on. I am having issues with some of the excersizes I want to do. Thank God that it is not my bike riding. I see my surgeon that did my RNY to see what he thinks about my hernia. I have to have it repaired. So my EXCERSIZE has not been what I want it to be. No excuse really for the other. The other thing is my choices of eating. Why in the world did I decide I would bake cookies as thank you gifts. I have not baked in over two years. So I made the cookies and..... Well every day truthfully I have eaten at least two to three cookies. While not getting sick from eating them. Mad that they do not make me sick! I just feel like doo doo after k know what my choice to eat them was. It is like I think I am still on my honemoon. I need to get back to my basics! I have gained 4 pounds since being home. I have continued to ride my bike every day since I got home from France. It is something I do that does not hurt me with regards to my hernia. So I said, this week is gig to be a better week. Today is Sunday and I swam today, then rode 35 miles on the bike. It felt so great and freeing! I needed to refocuss! I want to hit ONEderland!! I want to be where I have not been in years.... Since I was a girl. At 41 years old it is hard to actually think that I have lived so many years at over 500 lbs to not even ever fathom or think about weighing less than 200 pounds. Some days I wonder if I should just try to be content where I am at. But the bigger side of me.... My insides.... Say you can conquer and do this Sherrie!! You are good, you are worth it, and you have it in you to keep going!
So yes, for me this is one of the toughest journeys I have had to face. Because it is and has been life long since I was a young girl and it will be as grow into an old lady.
I love to come here, because there is so many that understand. It is still a tough journey, but yet so easy, simple but so hard!! Having a place to vent frustrations or disgust with myself, or to share the great things that are going on... It just feel good to have a place!
We are all amazing, we are all beautiful, and we are all empowering to others in one way or another!