I had LAP RNY in October of 2008. I lost 100 lbs. I never reached goal. I maintained for about 2 years. I gained back about 1/2 the weight loss now. I am 44 y.o. I am contemplating revision to DS. My two young daughters (10 and 6) are BEGGING ME NOT TO CONSIDER SURGERY AGAIN because I nearly died the first time around. I had a "white light" moment. I swore that I would never again in life contemplate ANY elective surgery again EVER!!!! I felt that unless you would rather be DEAD than FAT not to consider this option and certainly not if you are a parent. I am the only caretaker to my young girls and they are my life. Thank you for sharing about your friend. I wouldn't want my girls to be typing what you have typed here someday.
This is all just so sad, that I am so depressed about what has happened and that I am still holding onto the dream that this surgery can be for me the crown jewel it has been for so many that have gone before me. I feel that I have already altered my insides so what difference would it make to do so again? I also feel that since I already screwed around with my insides I may as well achieve the desired result and try again. Way back then I had contemplated DS but my surgeon didn't perform that surgery so I went with what most others called the gold standard.
If I dare to have revision surgery there is no one in my entire life that will support me because like I said, I was at death's door. They are all traumatized that I almost died. I had to be rushed back for a second emergency surgery within 24 hours of the first surgery that had been deemed a "success.". No one even realized that I was internally bleeding until it was nearly too late. I remember feeling like I was almost dead and taking my last breath and how scared I felt that I was going to die without anyone with me that I knew or loved as the drs were running me on the gurney back to the OR. I had such severe PTSD that I cried every day for 30 days straight after the second surgery. The insanity of it is that now, years later, with the memories and trauma suppressed, I am so unhappy with my body again that I want to try to make it work this time. I read so many happy stories. I want my happy ending too.
I am so confused...
If anyone else had similar confusion and wants to share their story (good or bad) I would appreciate it.