And the worms ate into his brain
She's the type of 71 year old woman who all her life relied on her looks instead of her brains. Talk about body dismorphia, she still sees herself as 29 years old with the body to match. I'm dead serious when I tell you she thinks every woman wishes they were her. She always put me down over the years about my weight and I told her to **** off and she stopped the comments after taking a good 15 years of it. During my wl phase she made the competitive comments such as "you weigh how much? Damn you're catching up to me!" Then when I reached goal I weighed less than her and she stated she simply had to lose weight. ( amazingly she and I wore the same size) So here I am, dripping wet from the pool, feeling quite happy and content on my lounge chair when she said "You look like you've gained weight." I looked at her and said "nope". She then proceeded to dissect me...what did I do with my hair, it looks ok I guess...your legs... I can tell you've gained....you're getting tan...I guess you need that since it's summer.... I'm looking at her like she has three heads and just let her run her mouth the completion of her vitriol with "I weigh 128 now...you're still at 138". When she was done I took my turn... has she tried the latest wrinkle cream? It just may help with her deep crevices especially around her smoker's mouth...I have a coupon for Crest White Strips, it might be usable on her dentures...Oh, how are those bumps on your who-ha? Did you go the gyno or just let them propagate? You really need to quit using that shade of eyebrow pencil, it makes you look like the Grinch.
I felt terrible. I don't like being ugly. It's just not me...and I'm ******g mad at myself for giving her that power...to stoop to her level is just not me. I even had a dream of myself...back to 323 lbs and her laughing at me. I woke up in a sweat, wondering if it were real.
*sighs*
Not sure what I'm telling ya'll this for...guess I needed to vent to people who've been there.
The mind **** continues...
Wow, i feel awful that you have someone so terrible in your life:( I know we hate it when we stoop to their level but honestly sometimes its needed! I doubt it but maybe next time she will think twice before she spews acid fecal matter from her mouth.
You are beautiful and have done something incredible for yourself. And because you had to work hard to achieve something, you've gained self worth which can not be bought or changed by creams but is found on our WL journey and is more than she will ever understand!
xx jen:)
~Jennifer
Revision to DS 11/9/11 LapBand 12/2006
SW 321/ CW 248/ GW 185 SW 330/ HW 348/ LW 300
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I suppose in the interest of self improvement is there a way you think you could have handled it that would not have made you feel terrible? Does your usual method of taking the high road bother you? These are more philosophical questions than anything.
But you've done fantastic and look great to me!
-Band to DS revision on 06/21/2011!
Highest known Wt/ Lowest Wt (Banded)/ Regain-Starting Wt/ Current Wt/ Goal Wt
379.6/ 272/ 342/ 169/ South of 200
Bottom line is you should not feel bad for defending yourself (hope I don't get struck by lightening).
Curious, you are in the South- were you raised here as well?
-Band to DS revision on 06/21/2011!
Highest known Wt/ Lowest Wt (Banded)/ Regain-Starting Wt/ Current Wt/ Goal Wt
379.6/ 272/ 342/ 169/ South of 200