First of all, slow down and take a breath. Next, NO, your tool is not broken and you cannot "break" the DS. You can, however, gain weight with poor eating habits. The great thing about the DS is you can see immediate results if you get back to basics and start working the tool. Stop worrying about all of the why's and put yourself back in the mind-frame of immediately post-op. Get strictly back to basics. One thing to keep in mind is that while the mal-absorption is still very strong, it is strongest the first couple of years. After that, you do absorb a bit more from what you eat, so it's not necessary to push protein quite so much to get what you need because you are absorbing more. That being said, it is possible that you are just eating a bit too much, even of the right things. It's mind game, really. I realized I could each much more if I didn't think about it. But once I reigned things in, got back to basics - even portion sizes from immediately post-op and started paying close attention to how my body felt when eating, I realized I was full much sooner than when I actually stopped eating.
The bottom line is, your tool is there, sounds like perhaps you just need to really reign in and start working the tool again. Perhaps even completely cut out foods that are triggers for you until you get things more under control. I'd recommend monitoring the daily vites & bites thread, you'll get some good ideas on food choices and portions. Don't worry about anyone else judging you . . . you did this for you and only you have to live with the decision. There's a lot going on in your life right now and that can be stressful. Just take it a day at a time and I think you'll be fine. If you feel you need to talk to someone, therapist, etc., then go for it. Good luck.
Diva Jojo: SW: 440lbs -- CW: 274lbs -- GW: 240lbs