While the electric was out in our area and I was staying at a hotel, I realized I can make it through anything. By giving the Lord all my worries through him nothing is impossible. I have a whole new outlook on life and what to expect after the surgery. It's not blank anymore. I am so excited. Don't get me wrong, I am still scared, but what will happen will happen. I will be fine. My surgery is July 31st and in 27 days I will be an entirely new man with a new life style. I have to do this for myself, my wife, my kids and my grandkids. The spark is back in me. I think I do have some issues with my medications but will deal with that after surgery and I am able to swallow pills again. So a short lived rough time will be expected.
I had forgotten why I started this journey in the first place. It's for my health. If I continue on the path I am right now there is no telling how long I will be around. After surgery and weight loss my life will change for the better. There is no doubt in my mind. The fears I had were gone and the blankness has been filled with nothing but positive.
If thousands of people can make it through this surgery then there is no reason why I can't either. I too will soon be a full fledged DSer. :) Nothing stopping me now.