With being exactly one week out from surgery, I can tell you that it is a mix of both right now. However, as each day I get physically stronger and have a bit more energy, I'm finding that the mental and emotional aspect is beginning to become more apparent. I find that I'm having to really push through the urges of what it used to be like to be able to eat whenever and whatever I wanted. I was just talking to my wife last night and was telling her that I don't feel hungry but I miss eating food. I'm sure this will lessen a bit as I get to move towards solid foods over the next month or so, but it definitely is 180° turn for how I used to live my life... but I'm trying not to give these struggles more "weight" than they need to. I need to keep a long-term perspective on why I chose to have the surgery and the positive effects it can have on my life, time with my wife, and with our kids.
However, I will be a friend who talks to people who are considering the surgery with a more frank and open conversation because I feel that it's something I missed as I prepared for this process… It was always painted as a perfect, easy, best thing I could ever do situation… But, this is a life long change that is going to require a dramatic shift in how I used to live out my life. But I'm excited for it!!