I don't think my CPAP machine is working right - I still feel like I have the sleep apnea, even with it running. I've already posted about this on the Sleep Apnea Forum.
I'm abstinent right now, and I've been resisting eating my client's food, which leads me to bingeing when I do that, or eat in between meals, which some people refer to as "snacking". I know it may seem like I have a rigid way of eating, but I find that eating anything in between meals, particularly something with sugar in it, leads to overeating and bingeing.
I noticed alot of different ways of eating to lose weight on this forum. Some people are on the Atkins diet, some on South Beach, some on Weigh****chers, etc. I tried a version of the Atkins diet a long time ago (in my twenties), and within days, I felt srange and sick, so I quit. I've been on LA Weight Loss, Weigh****chers, etc. They all have one thing in common which I hate. As you lose your excess weight, they take away more food from you, so you're eating less.
What I'm doing is eating like I would if I were already thin, and I don't diminish the amount of food I eat as I slowly lose weight. Being a compulsive overeater and volume overeater, any taking away of more food is threatening to me, and I feel like it is a form of starvation to keep you losing weight faster. I don't agree with the diet companies' theories that we need more food when we're larger, and need less when we're smaller.
I weigh and measure my food everyday, so I eat moderate portions of it. Sometimes in a restaurant or even at home, I don't want to eat all of my food, because I feel satisfied with a smaller amount. I don't try to "cut back", I simply "go with the flow", in other words, I stop eating at that point, and throw the rest out. This has been happening naturally on its own more and more. I don't feel deprived, like I would if somebody suggested I "eat less" since I've lost weight. If that is going to happen to me, it must be from within, not imposed from without. Otherwise, I tend to rebel and want to binge if somebody tries to force me to eat less. I belong to OA, and I believe my Higher Power is helping me to eat less, little by little. I simply cannot go on any more diets to lose weight faster. I cannot stick to them at all, and I fail at them, every time. I used to be successful on them in my 20s and 30s, but I always ended up gaining all the weight back and more, since I'm a compulsive overeater. Food addiction makes diets seem like torture to us, something we do over and over again, because we keep on failing to keep the weight off.
I commend anybody on this forum who can stick to a weight loss diet, like I used to be able to do. But when all the weight is off, I believe that is when the really hard part comes - learning to eat to maintain a normal weight and body size. How many people have learned to do that, successfully? I think very few.