Thanks, I can't find your blog though??

It's been a while since I posted, I always feel guilty when I'm not trying to eat right.  I need to change it.  I need to find some willpower or something.

Warning-this story is a little TMI, but I'm not discussing this with anyone IRL, so here we go.. I felt so embarrassed today at the doctor.  Yesterday I had a dull pain in my left lower abdomen, went to sleep hurting.  I woke up with a stabbing pain, same spot.  I knew I couldn't work hurting this bad and read online all the horrible things it could be, so I went to the walk-in dr.  I have no insurance, so the pain has to be bad for me to pay the $$ plus I really don't like going.  I weighed in at 301.4!  I have NEVER hit the 300 mark.  They went through my chart and in 10/07 I was 257.  That's almost 50 lbs in 2 years.  When the doctor pressed on my hurt spot I accidently hollered out.  They took an X-ray and the doctor had me look at it as well.  The x-ray was from below my chest to my pelvic area and I had umm... blockage in the ENTIRE area.  I have to take fleet and a bottle of miralax and if the pain doesn't go away after  this, then I have to go to for a CT scan to see what else it may be.  So, I basically paid $135 to find out I'm constipated badly and of course I had to tell work it was stomach problems and I needed to take the meds at home today so I had to remote connect.  So embarrassing...

How do I get back on track. I feel blah, I'm wearing a minimizer to squeeze in my jeans, and I'm gaining all in my hips.  It just sucks.  Thanks for letting me vent.   

I hope he gets better quickly and the junk food helps him heal quickly so you don't have to be tempted.  Good luck..

BTW, Skylar, hope your toes get better soon :).

No worries here, I totally agree with ya. 

I had grants to pay for college and really got into the classes esp since they were free, awesome instructor.  Anyways, I married a dumbazz and divorced him a year later.  Doing the whole Suzi homemaker thing cooking and all plus a lot of junk going on.  I also had always been on the go school or college, then work on a sales floor or restaurant on my feet, or then parties, cruising, sleepovers.  When you get a 8-5 sit on your butt job then come home and watch tv 5 days a week I just got really lazy.  At this point I'm probably about the same size, just lazy now.

 After I divorced, a few months later I met current dh and a couple months later I was preggo with dd & six months later ds, gaining 140lbs but not losing a lot of it.  I was so tired taking care of both of them and working ft, the couch is the nightly spot.   I've did different walking lunches with co-workers and stuff but no real daily exercise since my pre-baby years (and they are almost 9 & 7).   

Just wanting to blab about a small proud moment.  The past couple weeks I've took baby steps and cut back on soda (only when eating out) and sweets.  My portions have probably stayed the same.  I went to Trader Joes Saturday and stocked up on some healthier dinner stuff.  I've also been visiting the farmers market once a week.  I bought a Cherry Dr. Pepper Sunday for Mother's Day dinner at my mama's & had only one cup.  Brought it to work Monday and tried to drink a cup, threw it away.  Also, I bought all the stuff for my mama's dinner with all fresh fm veggies- grilled bbq chicken, grilled squash & zucchini, new potatoes, onion & peppers (not for me), summer salad with red romaine lettuce, tomato, onion, goat cheese crumbles (TJs), & Tuscan Romano dressing (not for me), and for dessert sliced strawberries with sugar, angel food cake sliced thin (bought a small one), & FF cool whip.  I didn't buy bread and it was pretty healthy I think and everyone loved it.  I also bought a huge Biggest Loser ball thing, but kids have used it more than me so far. 

So, for Mother's Day my mama got me a Wii Fit!  Yes, my mama buys me a present for Mother's Day from my kids.    (I did cook/buy everyones dinner & buy her some cool pjs).  I had kinda hinted as she wanted me to spend $100 or so on new capris & clothes on her cc, but I don't want to buy this size, so I told the kids if grandma asks tell her I'd like a Wii Fit.  First thing when they go shopping & she asks them what I'd like, both kids (7 & 8) keep telling her mommy wants a wii fit, lets get her a wii fit, so she asked them I told them to say it- they said yes, hehe.  So, she brings it over Saturday b/c the kids couldn't wait and we hooked it up.  It is super fun and I am currently the hula hoop 1st place in my house.  The running is challenging, I keep almost running into the tv when the little Mii waves to me and I try to catch up.  Anyways, the Wii measures your BMI & weight and I've lost 3 pounds! 

B: 2 egg omlette w/ ham, 1 cup spinach, & 1 slice TJ yogurt cheese (loved this)
L: Zaxby's- 5 boneless wings w/ ranch, a few fries w/ bbq sauce, & a sprite (I threw most of the fries away)
D: bowl of fresh strawberries w/ some cool whip, 2 cucumbers with vinegar

WTG Heather on 12 blocks! 

I think I found a diet that may last- The Biggest Loser diet.  I watch the BLS, so I know it will work in a controlled environment.  Just gotta control me :).  On the show they multiply your weight by 6 for your daily calories to start off quicker.  You get 4 fruits/veggies, 3 proteins, 2 grains, 1 extra-  I'm going modify because I love dairy even if I have to go to skim and drink more than one serving a day.  Anybody try this one?  Thanks!

Hmm..it would probably be safe as long as you don't go outside alone with him or take a ride somewhere.  That is awesome that you took the 1st step in contacting him. 

Ok crash course?
Depending on finances, go get that medi/pani and something cute to wear.   Otherwise, paint your nails and choose your favorite outfit (maybe kinda dressy tunic  top & bootcut jeans, sandals) and some sparkly earrings. 

Have a friend or you fix your hair & make-up-this is actually fun to me.  This is a bar and will probably be dark, so the makeup needs to be more dramatic: extra mascara and eyeliner, lipstick, gloss, blush, and little shimmer.  Don't forget perfume!  ..and breath mints gum (just in case).

When you get there, sit at the bar area first.  Order a water with lemon or cherries so looks like its a mixed drink.  Its the best place to start a conversation b/c where does everybody get refills? 

When you meet him maybe say "It's so great to meet you!  Thanks for inviting me, this should be fun!" , "So, what song are you going to sing" (and if he does listen intently or dance then afterwards say- "Wow, that was awesome, you did great!" or "My turn!") 

Smile a lot and enjoy yourself.  Have friendly conversations with his guy/girl friends also, they will give opinions after ya know. 

If there is dancing (and you are comfortable doing so) if he doesn't ask you to dance first hint "I love this song" on a slow one or something like that.  Or...you could just dance with your girlfriends and then look at him and motion for him to join you. 

Have lots of fun, don't be nervous, and make sure if you like him to lock down that 2nd date when ya'll say goodbyes.

No problem on the copied post :). 

I've been wanting to get a bread machine.  I love the whole wheat & grain breads, would love to make them healthier to still have bread in my diet.  I'll be sure to check out those books, thank you. 

I do eat out a lot- Hams and steakhouses (where I order chicken usually-weird) are my faves.  I think the 2-week thing might work, I do like short term goals better.  

Thanks for such a quick reply!

I can cook supper most days of the week, breakfast is usually cold, and if I eat lunch I have a fridge and microwave at work.  Weekends I can usually fit in time to cook.I'm not diabetic so no limits.  I CAN exercise (except bending right now- still hurts) and actually have a current Y membership (kids sports) but haven't been in forever since to be honest I'm lazy and need to force myself to do something physical.  My current hobbies are couponing, shopping, more shopping, watching movies,  the internet and hanging with my kids- exciting I know, lol!  My job is on my butt in an office chair 40 hours a week.  I eat larger qtys usually if we eat out or I'm up late and bored, otherwise I think I eat somewhat normal portions.  My weaknesses are soda (Mt. Dew,Shirley Temples, the new Cherry Dr. Pepper), sweets **** cream, chocolate, Dunkin Doughnuts), and carbs (potatoes & bread about any way).  Oh, and milk (...I like way too much, maybe a gallon a week- at least 16oz per sitting, usually 1%).  I eat out a few times a week, but not really fast food.  I don't like salty crunchy snacks often.  I like cooked veggies, but the only raw one I like are lettuce and cukes.  I eat beef, pork, chicken, and shrimp, no fish or game.  I'll eat most fruits but melons, pears, and bananas.

When I lost the most weight,  limited sugar/salt/bread, lean protein, mostly fruits & veggies plan worked the best.  I don't like artifical sweeteners, so the limited sugar is the hardest for me to stick with.