I feel that I was meant to read your post tonight. I have struggled with depression in my past and felt it was partly due to the stress of being a single parent, high stress job and financial pressures. I had many hurdles and did well to manage these stressors and then along came menopause at age 40ish. My mood was all over the map and finally went on the first of many SSRI's including one that was meant for migraine headaches (Topomax) as it had an appetite reducing quality. My doctor was female and was very supportive and sympathetic about my weight struggles. All through the changes of different meds - weaning off one only to start on something else my weight continued upwards. I always felt that I had good self-esteem and was very social but began to feel very anxious in social settings and then started finding excuses and dropping out of what once was enjoyable interactions I blamed my weight gain on the side effects of meds, and on an on. The viscious cirlce continued.
My life seemed to be on an even keel for sometime and I felt that I wanted to wean off anti-depressants but now with all the weight ( I am 5'2 and last weighed in for my referral at 292 lbs) my joints hurt so much (arthritis) and was finally diagnosed, after an MRI on my back, with 2 herniated discs and arthritis setting in on the lower spine. So I am dealing with chronic pain and the weight kept on going up its merry way (weigh lol).
I worry like you have so well described about the food issues that we carry with us and how I will cope with the new life. Overall I am excited but am a little concerned about the the next part of this journey. I commend you so highly on your honest and wonderful story and keep up the great work. The best part is that you have reached out and we seem to have to learn how to do that over and over no matter what. Keep posting with your story and enjoy that freedom you have worked so hard to achieve.