Fail :(

Marking today up for a total fail

Emotion eating, not standing up for myself, knowing I'm emotional eating and not stopping it.

I fell at work today. Tripped on a bump in carpet.
My supervisor asked me if I fall because I have mobility issues? Really? Asking me if I fell cause I'm fat? No I fell cause there is a bump in carpet moron. But no, I just looked at her and said nothing.
Really? I'm 400lbs but in do yoga weekly, Zumba weekly and treadmill every other day. Just felt it was a slap in my face.

Was in a funk the rest of the day and came home and preceded to emotional eat.. Now I'm so stuffed it actually hurts. Physical and mentally. Just wanna cry.

Sorry, just needed to vent.

Vent away!  

It happens.  Time to think and plan what you're going to do differently post WLS.  Leaning on others in the various support groups for folks who have been through WLS might help you quite a bit, as might the Psych and SW at the bariatric centre.  

I wish you a tomorrow that will be a better day and give you a chance to feel less full in a less emotionally charged time.  Take good care!  

Thanks.. Words of wisdom for sure.

I appreciate the kind words. 

I'm sorry.. I can imagine how you felt and are feeling but it will pass. Keep in mind why you started on this journey and try not to let anything steer you away from that. Remember that feeling your supervisor gave you and use it as your motivation to pick yourself up, dust yourself off and say screw you - you're gonna do this! Falling off the wagon is ok so don't beat yourself up about it. Dry your tears and kick some butt tomorrow back on plan!

You got this!!

 

Thanks... I really appreciate it. 

Vent away. That's why we are here.

Journal it too. Write about it. Get the issues out on paper if only to yourself.  Look at those feelings. It' s okay to feel those feelings, not to numb them with food.  Practice this and maybe next time you get angry, you can write before eating ..and maybe it can be cathartic? Or go for a walk. Or vent.  :) Today you let the emotions win, tomorrow maybe not...maybe you'll win. 

You're human though. Give yourself a little grace and move on to a better day!

The good thing is tomorrow is a new day.   I hope it is better for you!

((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))

Dawn

Thanks Dawn.. I will use your suggestions.

needed the hug ;) thxs

O dear do I know what that is like - the only thing I can say is that having had the operation I havnt had any binging - at all.  Big plus!  I mean its impossible to begin with and will remain that way.  My heart goes out to you.  I can relate to the not standing up for myself too.  It is slowly changing now and I feel people do not get away with the crap the way they used to.  It will get better for you, speaking from my experience that is.  She was totally insensitive for saying that and somehow she made it to supervisor.  She might have shown some compassion and concern for you, maybe she was worried about a law suit if the carpet was not properly secured!

First I hope that you are okay and did not hurt yourself or pull something when you tripped.  And secondly please don't beat yourself up, as the other posters have said, pick yourself  up and dust yourself off and tomorrow is a new day.  

Wishing you a good night sleep and face your boss, work and that stupid carpet with a new attitude!!

You can do this, be strong! 

Leslie

Thanks guys. I really appreciate the support.

I guess it just shocked me that I have gotten so big someone would honestly think I had mobility issues..

 

I will do better tomorrow, I will take all of the positive feedback and suggestions and put them in the front of my mind and remember. This will all be over soon. Dec 3rd I will be changing things.. But until them keep working on what I can change and work on now.. My reactions for one.

Next year this time I hope I'm almost half the woman I am today.. Size only. ;)