Ok I am going to answer this the best way I know how...Leeann my dear, it is not ok to cheat on opti. Not on day 1, 4 or 14.You know it, I know it, we all know it and thats why you came on here, to own up to it. I am not going to bash Lynn for what she said....I agree with the fact you have to WANT this....more than anything in the world, but does it mean you dont deserve to have surgery, NO. You deserve it as much as the rest of us. You are not less worthy. And trust me, after surgery even harder.
The difference I bring and many others, is we have already been through it. I am speaking from experience, and as someone who hated every moment of opti. I hated the taste, I hated the world cuz they could eat and I could not, and many times thought I was gonna crack and say f*** it, I am gonna eat. But you give your head a shake and get over it and chew some gum or drink water. Things you can do !!! And you can do this. When temptation is too much, leave the room. Dont give in.
Are we perfect no, are we human yes...but you have been given a gift. Embrace your gift, embrace that nasty **** called opti......and knock of the shenanigans !!!!!
Now, chug back your opti, you are one day closer !!!!! 