I had a remarkably normal holiday season. I don't really remember it ever being like this before. Typically, I would spend the holidays anticipating all the delicious and wonderful food I would get to enjoy at this time of year. Then I would eat and indulge for two weeks straight and typically gain a couple of pounds (or three, or four, or five...). The food would be the highlight of my holiday season.
This year was different.
Was there still good food around? Yes. Was there still a desire to have it? Yes. So what was different?
ME!
I knew that if I stuffed my face with holiday sweets, that I would feel sick and I wouldn't get my protein in. Something about this simply made over-eating the sweets unappealing. I would normally be the person who has to obsessively taste one of everything, but this year I was more than happy to choose one or two things, try a couple of bites and pass the rest on to my husband or throw it away. And I was completely satisfied! I didn't feel deprived at all!
On Christmas Eve, I prepared a beautiful Black Forest cake for my family's party. In the past I could have eaten three generous slices and still felt like I wanted more. This year, before going near the sweets, I filled up on protein options like bacon-wrapped scallops, meatballs, and ham, and when it was time for cake, I cut a small slice and greatly enjoyed half of it. HALF of it!!! And I didn't mind. I actually didn't give the cake another thought after I set down my plate.
On another evening, I went out for a beautiful meal with my three sisters. We enjoyed wine, shared appetizers and an amazing main course. No one said anything about my taking a modest share of the appetizers, or the fact that I ate all my scallops, but left behind most of the potatoes... because this is how many normal, average sized people eat everyday. They do not obsessively clean their plates. They enjoy their meals to satiety, and then leave the rest. No one would think it is odd for this little 127lb woman to leave some potatoes behind, and I didn't feel self-conscious about it either. I AM NORMAL!
This is a revelation. It is wonderful. It is freeing, and so, so normal feeling. I don't obsess, but I can still enjoy! I can have anything I want, but in moderation - and I'm capable of it! Incredible!
I will forever be grateful for my DS and what it has done for me over this past nearly 10 months. It's hard to believe so much has changed in so little time, but it is all for the better. I have lost 108lbs and have a healthy BMI. My blood sugars are normal. In three weeks I will stop all medication for migraines and IBS after titrating down over the past several months. I hope everyone here can experience what I have this past year in the coming year. The only resolution I'm making for 2013 is to keep doing what I'm doing now... protein first, low carb, moderation is possible, and never miss a dose of supplements!
Happy 2013 Everyone!