Hello all

I'm Linda and I participated in chats here as I was working to get ready for my surgery.  In December 2008, I had a coronary artery stent placed when it was found my artery was 95% blocked.

In August this year I was working towards getting ready for a December, 2009 surgery date.   Unfortunately, the 24th of August, I had to have yet another coronary stent placed.   This was due to another blockage, this time 90% blockage, in front of the stent. The doctors tell me it was due to scar tissue.

This worries me tho now as it happend once, it can happen again.   Now I can't have surgery until August 2010 at the earliest.

I was working out and  had lost 34 lbs, but now am in cardiac rehab and the weight loss has come to a grinding hault  as  I'm  not allowed yet to work out as I was working. 

I hope this doesn't sound like a 'woe is me" post, because it's not.  I am VERY grateful to once again slip out of the grim reaper's grip.   

I am requesting prayers, lots of them for me.   I am struggling emotionally with all of this as I did everything I was suppose to....and still am  not better. So frustrating!     Please pray for clarity of mind and patience for me as I struggle thru this 10 week stint of cardiac rehab again.   If I can lose and keep the weight off myself, that would be grand, but I've done this so many times before, I can't see how that will be.


I don't normally ask for prayers for myself.  yet, I know this is the first thing I need to do, and the rest will fall into place.

Thank you all so much!

Now...I'm off to read about what you all have been doing!

Linda

Linda,
just hang in there.  I had open heart in 2007 and just now hoping that by december can have my gastric bipass.  It is a long haul but we will make it. 
Terri

Thanks, Terri.  I will say prayers for you too!    Hope you are feeling well and can have the bypass in December!

Linda

All you need to do is ask on this site and you'll have oodles of prayers going up for you.  You've had a rough road, but you're still here to talk about it thank god.  Putting things off for a while doesn't mean it's not going to happen.  If you're meant to have gastric by-pass you will.  Maybe later than sooner, but your date will come, as most of ours have.  The people waiting will see their surgery date come soon enough. 
I certainly know how hard it is to wait, but we've all gone through it.  You've got to feel a sense of accomplishment in that you've lost 34# so far.  That's great.  Just take it one day at a time.
Praying for patience and peace and healing for you.
Jan

Hi Jan

Funny thing....when I read your posting I started to cry.     I have had a rough road of it, but I've always been the strong one in the family and I have attempted to pretend it hasn't been hard on me, but it has.

I have changed so much in my life over the past 10 months and I feel like I"m not getting anywhere sometimes.     I have  a little pity part once in awhile and then I pick myself up off the shower floor (for women do for some reason cry in that shower!) and keep on , keeping on!

One day at a time.  Good advice!  I've given it myself before, but somehow forgot it.

Thanks for your post and prayers!

Linda

Didn't mean to make you cry, but often we need to do that, and it makes us feel better!

Keep your chin up.

Jan

Prayers going up!!

Thanks, Jo!

Linda, there is nothing wrong with asking for prayers for yourself. I just wanted to let you know that you never need to ask me twice for them...I am always right there waiting to add someone to my prayer list. I am just a bit sad that it seems like the list is getting longer and I think it should be getting smaller.

Your time will come in it's time. Just remember that it isn't always in our time..and that is a hard one to live with when we want it so badly.

I will keep you in my prayers and I know that you will get what you want but it will be in God's time and not ours. He has no calendars or watches.

Just put one foot in front of the other and keep on walking...you will get to your destination one step at a time.

Thanks, Brenda.  

I knew coming here was the right thing to do.  I've been putting it off because I'd been away so long, but you folks here truly understand what it feels like to want and need this surgery so much and have it snatched away from you for various reasons.

I promise to listen to all of you and not be a stranger.   One foot in front of the other... I can do that. :)   Thank you for your prayers..and for understanding me.

Linda

linda...oh gosh...my hubby is a heart patient and just this week had a stent put in to one of the (bad) arteries that was bypassed in 2003--he had 2 with 98% blockage and 2 with 99% at that time- this time he is now running on 3 cylinders! he had to have cardiac clearance for an operation to correct his abdominal aortic aneurism....so now that will occur in december...

anyhow -long way around to say to you are certainly not "woe is me-ing" !!! i can feel your hurts in your plea and certainly will send my prayers for you - patience is a very hard thing to come by...you have come so far and i believe you will get to your wls...meantime be good to you and stick around here with us!

Thanks, Margo.  Everyone's kindness here envelopes me like a warm embrace. 

Wow about your husband!  I hope he's doing well now.  Is he going to cardiac rehab?  I am doing my second stint of that now.   They had  a sit down with me last week to convince me to stop trying to rush through it and to let my body heal. I feel wonderful....but evidently, my artery is still healing and I  can't do what I was doing before...for now.

I hope all turns out well for your hubby and you when he has the AAA surgery. I will keep you all in my prayers.

Thank you for your prayers for patience and peace.   I so need both now.   Nothing worse than no peace.

warm regards, Linda

(((linda))) you have my prayers and thoughts ALWAYS!!!! we are all here for you whenever you need us!!! just give a shout and one of us will always answer!!

hang in there sweetie...good things come to those that wait....

Thanks for the  hugs Judy. I really need them lately.

I'm trying to be everyting to everyone here and work and take care of me too, and it's just not working.   I ask for prayers for peace and patience in this long battle and a health heart too!

I believe God has saved me twice now for a true purpose.  I must learn to be still to hear him.

Think I need superglue for my feet! lol

Thanks again, and I'll be around more.

Linda

Linda...yu have come to the right place for prayers and support. I will add you to my prayer list immediately.

You will get your WLS when the time is right.

Hugs.....connie d

Linda,

Glad to see you posting here, you are blessed in that you participate on two of the most supportive boards on OH, from my humble perspective. . .

I am sorry to hear about your latest glitch, but the positive side is that you are on the path towards embracing the changes necessary to have a healthier life. 

If you aren't already doing so, I would suggest once you get out of your rehab, that you participate in support groups to help aid you in your process, if not the support here is absolutely something that helps, but I know there are plenty of groups in the PA region and hope you will, if not already, get involved in them.

Best wishes and prayers, along with positive healing thoughts coming at you!

Laureen

Baby Steps,,,,  Baby Steps,,, 

Some of us fly through our surgery with NO problems.  Others have the frustrating journey of the slow and steady.  The goal is to get through it.  No matter what the time frame you WILL make it. 

Prayers are always sent up for those who ask... and for some who don't.  We do care and want the best for you.  There are some pretty strong shoulders in this group to cry on. 

Millie

Dear Linda,
Sending you prayers and hugs.
Know that God is at your side right now and a lot of people are praying for you.

WLS can wait, you have to get your health straightened out first. What's another year. Just keep posting and before you know it you will have a surgery date.

Hi Linda

Praying for you often.  You can do this, Linda.  Stay with it and think positive!

Donna

Linda,

Prayers being uplifted for you! 

Blessings,

Debbie