Hi! I just found this message board and, even though it looks like the door is dusty from lack of use, I'm hoping there are some people who will start chatting here.
I am on my state message board...Alabama....yikes! Of all the places for a pagan to be! It appears that virtually everyone is big time christian on the board. I have gotten a lot of support from them in a lot of ways, but it bothers me all the praying that is going on for everyone. They are, of course, entitled to their path, but I know that I would not be entitled to mine, were they to know what my path is. I don't have pagan on my profile because this is, after all, Alabama.
I lived in Tampa FL for several years and enjoyed being a part of a large pagan community down there. It was wonderful.
My health forced me to move back to my hometown in May and I have just been dying inside for a lot of reasons. I lost my health, my job, my home, my friends down there, my life of freedom to be who I am.
I have a consultation with a surgeon on the 17th for this surgery, but I don't know if the insurance will approve it or not.
Everyone on my Alabama board has been praying for everyone and talking about how God is so good and wonderful and no matter what post I post, they tell me to pray and God will take care of me.
I was reading a profile of a lady on the Alabama board who had surgery at the same place where I have a consultation and as she was going into surgery, she was overjoyed that the nurse asked her if she was saved and prayed with her.
Ok, I need this surgery so badly that they can do whatever they want, but I am going to be SO uncomfortable if a nurse asks me if I'm saved and prays with me. Since I am FROM Alabama, I know that my saying I'm not a christian and no thank you on the prayers will not be the end of it. She will still tell me she's going to pray for me and will look shocked, etc.
I remember being in the broom closet for years before moving to Florida and I hate having to go back in the broom closet again. But it is SURVIVAL here. You can get killed for being anything other than christian in this area. I would actually be SCARED to tell the medical personnel that I was a witch.
Anyway, I chanced upon this message board and am hoping to meet new people who can give me encouragement without telling me they are going to pray for me.
Again, it is their right to worship as they choose and I respect that, but I do not want to have to tell some nurse whether I am saved or not.
I've heard a lot of people talk about liking a doctor or not because he will pray with the patient before surgery. I think that should be the patient's decision whether christian prayers are forced on them.
Anyway, I LOVE my friends on the Alabama board, but I do not wish to be inundated with prayers. And I hope no one on the Bama Board finds this post or I will be an outcast for sure.
So thought I would say hello here and hope someone will peek in and say hi. There are a lot of pagans in this world and I am on other email lists so I'm not just totally isolated as I was before Florida (thank the Goddess for the internet!) but it would be nice to see some like minds HERE!
Thanks for listening!