i'm 16 weeks. and i hear all these lovely stories about flutters and what not. the only thing i'm feeling is acid reflux, an explosion of acne, 3 days of no BMs, and misc discomfort when i'm sleeping. probably bc my body is growing at night. i don't feel like eating, i just wanna sleep. i have zero energy and then this ravenous hunger comes over me. maybe i'm getting sick. or maybe my 1st ad 2nd trimester decided to switch symptoms.
i've gained 11lbs. which...is a bit scary. i'm only 16 weeks. it didn't bother me before bc i still looked great. but now i'm starting to look fat. and i knew this would happen but it didn't start to bother me till yesterday. it bothers me for 3 reasons. one, i'm almost back to 200lbs and i know i'll go over. which for us WLS patients is scary! remember how hard we worked to get to onderland? reason 2 is that so many of the girls i talk to are like, oh i never even gained weight. i weighed less when i delivered than i did before i got pregnant. i guess maybe they lost some during morning sickness. but i never got that. the good news is the cravings for junk food have subsided. i got my fix. so hopefully i don't gain too much more too quickly. i haven't worked out at all. i have zero energy. and reason #3 why this bothers me and the biggest reason of all (and its not vanity) is because ppl judge me ALL the time. they're always waiting for me to screw up and get fat so they can prove to themselves that wls doesn't work and they can go on about their lives. so i feel like they'll see me as a failure for putting on the weight. even though its for a very good reason and even a skinny girl who never had weight issues would put on a significant amount of weight, i still think they're gonna judge me.
i know its dumb. i'm not gonna let myself get all caught up in it. this baby is getting bigger therefore i am getting bigger. and thats that. i think i'll feel better when i feel the baby move, or start showing. because then i'll have something tangible. right now i just have my body making these weird changes that aren't cute. ughhh 5 months can't get here soon enough. its like working out and wanting to see results. only i'm pregnant and i wanna see that i'm pregnant.
ok thats my rant. i seem to be getting everything in the book that i read for the 2nd trimester. constipation (big time!!), dry irritated eyes, everything but the flutter. waah :( seriously though, any one have any ideas about the constipation? i drink lots of water. is it safe to take a stool softener?