- HEALTH TRACKER
There are stages to this process and I understand that. Looking back on my own process I think a lot about what I wish I could tell new post-op Nikki from where I sit right now. And I have decided it is this.
You are you. You are you for a reason. You can’t and won’t be anybody else besides you. But guess what? You are awesome! There is nobody else like you and because of that you have unique and wonderful gifts to bring to the world.
Keeping all that in mind…STOP comparing yourself to everyone else. They are not you and you are not them.
STOP sweating the small stuff and live this life. Because all too soon you’ll find more years behind you than ahead.
STOP selling yourself short. You deserve all the love, happiness, good health, good vibes, happy memories and healthy relationships the universe has to offer but those rarely just knock on your door. More often you have to make positive changes within yourself to attract positive changes around you. Good energy draws more good energy to you. So STOP the negativity.
STOP limiting yourself. You can do whatever it is you put your mind to. You really can. Barring physical ailments, most of the time it’s mind over matter. So in reality YOU are the roadblock standing between you and any goal you have in life. So STOP doing that.
Lastly, STOP choosing unhappiness over happiness. Yep, that’s right “Newbie Nikki” happiness is a CHOICE. It’s rarely the easy choice. Life is stressful. The only thing that is constant is change. As soon as you get to one mile marker on the journey your brain thinks about how long it is until the next mile marker but guess what else? YOU get to choose to move about this journey with an attitude of abundance and the spirit of joy. Or you can move about this journey with an attitude of lamentation. It’s truly your CHOICE. While choosing happiness is by far the more difficult thing to do, it is so freeing. Let go of everything that makes you feel worthless and incomplete. It takes years, decades, lifetimes but as you drop each piece of negativity along your path you’ll find yourself lighter, stealthier, and moving at a faster pace toward where and WHO you want to be.
So that’s what the new me would tell the old me. And it’s also what I’d tell all of you. We focus so much on the food, the food, the food. Not to sound cliché but it truly isn’t about what we’re eating, but what’s eating us. When we get closer to being in touch with our emotional selves we start to find a bit of peace with the food aspect. Even a bit more peace with the weight aspect (although even the most centered person is capable of being knocked off kilter there too).
Bottom line: be good to yourself. You only get this one life and it’s a shame to waste a single moment of it needlessly torturing yourself. Motivating? Yes. Pushing yourself beyond your comfort zone and way past what you thought you could do? Absolutely! Torture? No, no, no…
It's not who you are that holds you back...
It's who you THINK your NOT!
highest weight = 315 pre-op weight = 290 current weight = 196
Proximal RNY Lap - 02/21/05
8 years committed ~ 100% EWL and Maintaining