Hang in there. Always remember that tomorrow will be better. No matter how dark it seems now, the clouds will lift and the sun will shine.
Please talk to someone. There is no shame in depression or taking medication for it. It's no different than any other health issue. I know because I've been there.
Surgery weight: 232 lbs. / Goal: 145 lbs. Height: 5'5" Fat? Ain't nobody got time for that.