Topic: RE: Did surgery.
I had lap-band surgery when I was 292 pounds. I did it because of the high blood pressure and diabetes. I have 3 litte kids and did it to be healthy for them. I have been over 200 pounds since I was a teen ager, so I am actually afraid of being thin. I don't know what that is like.
With the lap-band I lost about 90 pounds and then gained about twenty back when they had to empty it due to the band slipping. I made the decision to switch to RNY due to problems I had with the band since they had to remove it due to the slip.
My husband loves very large women...He was fine with me at 220 but now it seems i am too thin in his eyes. He just told me a week ago that he thinks I am too small now. I am not thin by anyone's standards but he liked me better bigger. Strange situation to be in. He's happy I am healthier but he misses my bulk and watching me enjoy eating.
So no more high blood pressure no more diabetes today I bought size 36DD bras and size 14 bathing suits. I can't remember being this size...and I am still losing. I still see myself as I was. People commenting on my weight loss makes me uncomfortable. So I don't feel more confident, I don't feel more attractive. I miss my sweets...especially my ice cream, my hair is falling out by the fistfull and i have horrible gas that is improving, but keeps me from attending some social situations when its really bad...but I am healthier.