I have a copuple more weeks to go and I was crying most of the day too. Let's see, I miss my Gram who passed (she raisied me), Survivor made me cry and Desperate Housewives...wow. I'll be right next to you in the looney bin

with our cryings jags. I think we are just preparing mentally and physically for this huge change. A change we need to make for ourselves and no one else. Sometimes I think it makes you feel lonley, like you are on your own with this (even with the support of our families) That's why I love this site. It makes me feel "normal" when I hear about others experiencing the same things as me. Best of luck on a speedy recovery. I can't wait to sit next to you on the losers bench!