Thanks everyone for your kind words and encouragement.  My therapist did say it was good I sought help early before it got worse....we have caught it before it got really out of hand.

I just wanted to share my story so that others who may be struggling several years post op will know its OK to reach out for help...there is no shame in asking for some help.  It's actually courageous. 

Christy

The mental aspects are the worst.  I have went through the breakup of a 4 year relationship and have come unglued. 

I am in therapy because I realized I was on the verge of an eating disorder which I find oddly ironic.  So even at 3 years out the mental crap can come back and bite you in the ass.

Christy

I am going through a bad break up and my sleep as been awful.  Typically Lunesta works pretty well. but it  hasn't been doing the trick;

I saw the Doc on Friday and she gave me sublingul Klonipin and that really did the job 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep.

Christy

Dawn thanks so much for posting this.  I am almost to my 3 year mark and the head issues just seem to get worse as time passes by.  I am getting into therapy because I can't handle all the anxiety that go along with them. 

I have just went through a difficult breakup and this morning as I was driving to work I had the realization that instead of binging on food I was just choosing not to eat.  This too is not good, but I know it is a total control thing...I feel like choosing not to eat is the one thing that I can control in my life because everything else is totally out of control. 

Once again thanks for your post it really is a lifelong battle.

Christy

Thanks everyone.  My appointment went well.  The doctor made me feel really at ease and not crazy at all.  She increased my depression meds and added an anti-anxiety med.  She also gave me zolfran to help with my nausea so hopefully I will be able to start eating again. 

She was concerned with my weight, I have lost 10 pounds since my last visit and that was just a month ago.  I explained I knew that wasn't good and I knew I needed to eat but was hoping that with the zolfran it would help stabilize things and get me back on track. 

I go back in a couple weeks for a follow up to see how the new meds and dosages are working.

Christy

So last weekend with the support of my family and friends I moved my alcoholic fiance out of my house.  It has been an unsettling time to say the least. 

I have really been having issues eating.  Solids make me want to puke and shakes make me want have to run to the bathroom for other reasons.  I know a lot of this has to do with nerves and stress because I was fine before all of this crap went down at my house.  I am also dealing with a lot of anxiety and feelings of panic.  I have never had these issues before.  I am on lexapro and wellbutrin for depression and have been for years but from what I have read they don't do much for anxiety and panic. 

Then to add more anxiety to the mix I have to fly out on Friday morning for my brothers wedding.  When I think about the getting on the plane I start to sweat and have a hard time breathing. 

So I am going to the doctor tomorrow morning, they are working me in and unfortunately it is with a doctor in the office I don't see.  I have no idea what to tell her and quite honestly as I write this I feel like I am batty as **** but I just don't know what to do and can't handle feeling anxious, panicked and on top of that not able to eat.

Christy

With my family and friends help we got him moved out on Saturday.  After I spoke with my parents they were very concerned about me being alone with him.  They were concerned for my safety and well being.  We all felt the best thing would be for him to stay in a motel and rent a storage unit until he found an apartment or other living arrangements. 

I am very lucky to have such supportive family and friends.  I am still really upset that he picked alcohol over me, but I know there isn't anything more I could have done for him.  It will just take some time to get over all of this.

Thanks everyone for your words of encouragement.

Christy

Those are my biggest issues...he is totally hiding it and he lied straight to my face about it. 

I would stay with him if he decided to seek treatment for his addiction but I can't be with someone who is boozing it up all the time, because to be honest it just makes me want to drown myself in a bottle too....which we all know seems to be a more common issue amongst WLS patients. 

Thanks everyone for your replies.  It means a lot.

Christy

I am so lost and not sure what to do.  A few weeks ago I discovered that my fiance had been binge drinking vodka to the point of passing out.  He was hiding the bottles in his bathroom downstairs.  When I finally figiured it out I confronted him and asked him why he was hiding and drinking so much alcohol.  He told me he had no reason for it.  I told him him if that was the case I wasn't comfortable with him drinking like that and wanted him to stop.  He promised he wouldn't do it again.  Next weekend I go downstairs to do some laundry and he is acting goofy and I ask him what he is drinking and he tells me water.  I pick up the glass and smell it and it is vodka.  I go pour it out and ask him where he hid the bottle and it is in a new hiding place in the bathroom and I make him pour it out. 

The next morning when he is totally sober I had a conversation with him and told him if he had a drinking problem I would support him if he went to treatment, but if he didn't and continued to drink we were done. He swore to me he didn't need to seek treatment and he didn't have to drink and it was a stupid mistake and he wouldn't do it again.  I firmly told him that if it happened again we were over and he would be moving out.  I asked him if he understood and he said yes.

Last night I am awoken at midnight by a loud crash in my bathroom and I have no idea what the heck is going on and I yell out to him if he dropped something and he said yes.  This morning I woke up and the towel rack was completely torn off the wall.  So I went downstairs to his bathroom and started looking and guess what I found.  One empty bottle of whiskey and another half empty bottle of one hidden behind the toilet. 

I am at a total loss what to do.  I feel like I have given him chance and chance again and he just keeps doing it.  Obviously, he has a problem but refuses to get help.  If he would get treatment I would let him stay, but I feel like I can't trust him at all anymore and I am just heartbroken over the whole thing.  If I keep giving him more chance I know he will just keep drinking and quite honestly it is no good for my mental well being.

Sorry this is so long...thanks for taking the time for reading...

Christy

I completely understand your feelings.  My BFF is MO.  When we travel together I feel so guilty that I can fit in the airplane seat with extra space and she has to put up the arm rest to fit in the seat.  Then it is difficult for her to keep up just walking around taking in the sights because of her size and physical aliments.  It is hard not to feel guilty because I was in the same place a few years ago.

But good news now almost 3 years after my surgery she has decided she is going to have RNY and I am so relieved and happy for her.  I went to the WLS seminar with her and I had the same feelings of guilt has I sat in the room with everyone of different shapes, sizes and stages in their lives and almost wanted to cry because I felt so blessed that I had the chance to change the way my life was headed. 

Christy

I get this comment a lot.  I have been overweight my whole life and being larger sized is all my family and friends have ever known me as. 

However, when I get this comments it actually makes me feel bad because I just think in my head if you only knew what number the scale says you would think I was "wasting away". 

After time you will just learn to ignore them.  You are the one that has to live in your body and be happy with your size and weight, not everyone else.  So do what feels good for you!!

Christy

I have something similar but the only complaint I have is the issue of going to the bathroom.  You darn near have to get undressed in the one I have to potty.  I really love slimpressions because they don't impede me when I have to use the bathroom.  However, I am happy you found something you are comfortable and excited about. 

Christy

Man you have been through the ringer.  I admire your determination and strength.  I hope they figure out what is going on and you get some much needed relief.  Totally agree that if you have an episdoe like that again you need to go to the ER!!!

Christy