I saw my weight loss surgeon last night for the last appt. before my surgery is planned. My life has been in chaos for the last two weeks because my father had a stroke and spent over a week in the hospital. Now I am feeling hesitant about moving forward with the wls, but I also feel like I must move forward too!
It is so hard to know what is the right thing to do now. I hate to put myself out of commission having vsg wls and then maybe not be able to help out with my Dad if he ends up needing it. He is in a group home and they take such wonderful care of him. But when he lands in a hospital, well, I end up spending all possible time with him there because hospitals are just not safe places for people to be in these days without someone conscious looking after you!
I have been running around like a chicken with my head cut off, jumping through all the hoops my doctors are requiring of me in order that I obtain approval for wls. Then I've been doing the same thing over my Dad and all his health care needs.
It is no wonder that I've got a raging Fibromyalgia flare-up going on. Stress always seems to kick me right, square in the butt exactly this way!
The weight loss surgeon was so sweet. I told him everything and asked for his input about where I go from here. He told me to just keep putting one foot in front of the other, leaving the 04/22 date for wls in place, and that if it ends up being needed at the last minute to reschedule, then he would be fine with that. I could have kissed him on the spot! What a relief!
Tonight right after I finish two more medical clearance hoops, (more lab/blood work and some x-ray pickups for later delivery), I am going straight home, (where it is just me and my dog), and I am not coming out of my house until Sunday morning when I go to a meditation service!
I so hope and pray that this one-day reprieve will allow some breather-room so that I can get my bearings again. I really feel like I need about a week's reprieve, but alas, I just don't have that kind of time right now.
Thank God it's Friday and I can spend some time at home in peace and hopefully recharge my batteries!
Take Care Everybody!