breakdown mode

i REALLY dont mean to b a debbie downer but since i embarked on this weight loss journey my life has been nothing but stress and more stress ....my consult was at end of march had the endoscope ...pfts...ekg...labs all in early april all came back normal except for vit. D no big deal......personal life began downward spiral....dad had a stroke two days later found out he was cheating on my mother so now divorce of parents...3 weeks later grandmother passes away...then my lil man starts K (not 2 bad)....life is perking back up keep losing weight ....get surgery date...then hubby gets arrested for dui his car is not driveable so 1 car down....go 4 preadmission testing told that i have a stage 4 murmur never been told this before ...go to heart specialists was told unable to clear for surgery was about to sob right then and there but i waited until i went for an echo which came back abnormal...i leave well try 2 and car wont start had to call someone once i calm the f*&^% down i look up and there is over afoot long crack in my windshield...is there anymore poo to add to my pile y yes there is ....i needed a stress test done that 2 came back inconclusive and now i need a cardiac CT....now im waiting on that deer to jump in front of my car geeze louise.....surgery which was suppose to b oct 29th is now set for nov 17th we shall c if i have a complete and total meltdown before then stay tuned

Oh my! I am so so sorry. I plan on having Surgery with Dr.Shin as soon as I can get a date set. I am just hoping my Psych eval (it said Anxiety state and Depressive disorder) doesn't make them say No.....

I hope everything starts looking up for you. I'll say a little prayer for you tonight.

thank u i need some divine intervention right now..... i think that u prolly will b approved fingers crossed for u....when is your last appointment with dr. shin?

I go back to see him on the 13th and have my EGD on the 14th. Which is my last pre-op test. I just hope the psych test doesn't make him change his mind. I really want this surgery. Do you know if he only does them on Friday or does he do them all through the week.

So far I love him and everyone at the office is so nice. He did my mothers lap band a few years back. Also do you know if he makes you do a 2 week liquid diet for the VSG surgery?

O.M.G.    So sorry all this happened to you - "Stress" is putting it mildly.  I hope things get better for you soon. Stay strong.  

You certainly do have a lot of poo on your pile, as you put it. :)  My heart goes out to you.  You are clearly a strong person, so I know you can handle these hurdles until your surgery. Think of your surgery as a huge step in terms of taking control and improving your life. Things are about to get so much better, so try to keep looking forward. I'm rooting for you - hang in there!

^" Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9

This has seen me through so many trials in my life. Times when I thought I would break under the pressure I have literally been forced to lean on the Lord only to find it's what I should have done from the beginning. This too shall pass, has often been my mantra. I'm so sorry for the difficult times you are going through. 

 I was once told that life does not give us more than we can handle.    You are clearly a very strong individual.  I do not know if I would  not have broken down with the first 1-2 incidents.  Good luck with your last test!

I think we can safely say that you have efficiently piled up all of your bad luck in one big lump.  That means by the laws of the universe you are due a nice long stretch of good luck!!

Oh my goodness that is a boatload!!!  It sounds like you have survival mode turned on though.  Just take one day at a time.  Do what you have to do for now and find an outlet. Rely on a Higher power and find a distraction....like take a walk, sweep the floor...something active when you feel the craziest....do not turn to food.  Put your energy in moving forward.  Believe it or not you have started a new chapter in your life.  Doing these types of things will be what you need later too after your surgery.  It will get better...especially when you start really losing and you feel better physically.  You can do this.... After all you have survived all of the poo above....you will succeed....one step at a time.