Topic: RE: Awkward NSV... and a reminder of what's to come
About this same time last year, I was thriving on my plan with Weigh****chers. The pounds had been melting away all winter long, and all of a sudden I had a new wardrobe of cute clothes that, inadvertently, showed off my newly slimmer figure. Because I started feeling so much better, I also suddenly had the desire to wear makeup more often, which is something I don't do when I'm not feeling so great.
That was about the same time that I started noticing that my students, as well as coworkers, were commenting more and more about my loss and how great I looked. Nothing negative coming from them at all... but it weirded me out, because I was suddenly getting a ton of attention, even just in the form of compliments about an outfit or a hair style, etc. Not something I'm used to.
Then some of my male students started commenting about those things, and I got really uncomfortable for some reason. In my heart of hearts, I know this was part of the reason I fell off the wagon soon after that. I freaked out and started self sabotaging without realizing I was doing it.
Fast forward to today...
Not only did I have two coworkers comment that I would need a new wardrobe very soon, as they could tell how loose my outfit was, but I also had three, yes THREE, male students call me "pretty," "gorgeous," and "princess." I know some of that, actually most of it, was just them being sweet, but it brought back all of those feelings that I never really dealt with before.
This made me realize two things:
1) Even though I have been stalling for about ten days now, I'm clearly making some kind of progress, because people are noticing (even if I'm not)
2) It may be time to get to a counselor very soon. It's a good thing that the school year is almost up, and then I'll have all summer to work on this while my body changes even more. Self sabotage is bad enough with Weigh****chers... I definitely don't want to have that problem now!
Highest weight: 277 Starting Weight: 250 Surgery Weight: 241 Current Weight: 130
Goal Reached in 10.5 months :)