320 lbs on the left in November 2011, 253 lbs on the right on my 37th birthday this weekend.

*Edited to add, Size 24W on the left, Size 16W on the right.




I am so happy with the progress I have made since having my sleeve.  But I am also just scared that it's over now, at 250lbs!  I had some life drama through March/April/May, and I let myself eat emotionally and add a bunch of junk food back in.  Naturally, the scale has only moved a few pounds in the last few months.  I feel like I can eat a lot, and I still want junk.  I am so scared I am going to screw this up too.  I just don't know how to get a hold of myself, and make myself get back on track.

Anyone else feel like they blew it for a while, but managed to save yourself and get back on track?  Would love personal stories and advice.  Thanks everyone.

Thanks for your response.  Yes I think I may need to get some levels checked.  My primary care physician was a real cow about my VSG.  She pretty much stopped talking to me.  I have found a new doctor now (I think) so maybe that should be my first order of business.

I also live in Canada (Saskatchewan) and it is cold as hell here right now.  So I don't really get "out" to enjoy exercise outside at this time of year.  I am so glad that spring is on the way.  As it is now I have to find some indoor things.  I got a treadmill a week or so ago, and right now I am just in a staring contest with it.  I need to just sack up and give it a try.  :-)

Thanks so much -- and look at you go!  97 lbs, WOW! 

Yeah if I could have one wi**** would be to become addicted to exercise!  ;-)

Thanks for responding - yeah just got a treadmill last week, and right now we are just kind of staring each other down.  ;-)

I didn't get to be MO because I gorged myself at the drive-thru or really binged.  I got to be MO because for as long as I can remember, I probably ate an average of an extra 300-500 calories every single day.  I always thought this was just a terrible habit, and something that I "liked to do".  Now that I am Month 3 with my sleeve, I am realizing that it was more of a coping mechanism than I realized.

I have a really nice life.  I have an incredible husband, two beautiful children, a successful business and a lovely home.  I would say I probably just have the normal amount of daily stress that comes with being a wife, a Mom to two very little ones, and being the primary breadwinner/running a business.

This is my busy time of year at work.  I am finding that for the last month I have been much more short tempered and easily annoyed.  I also just have this generalized low-level feeling of anxiousness and worry, pretty much all the time.  Nothing that is derailing my life or anything, but I am just keenly aware that it is there, like a little devil sitting on my shoulder.  I can really see now how I used to have a bowl of cereal and a chocolate bar or something late in the evening, and it "made me feel better" -- it released some endorphins or some hormone or something that was very physical and very real.  I'm sure it's like smoking, or anything else.  Now that I don't have that outlet, that coping mechanism, I'm kind of becoming a real *****  I'm sure I'm not an easy-breezy person to be around right now.  I kind of don't like being around me either.

I have never liked exercise.  I haven't incorporated it into my new world successfully yet.  And I remain unconvinced that exercise will replace my former anxiety-management crutch of FOOD.

I don't really know why I'm posting this.  I guess I want to know that I'm not alone, and I want to know if this feeling eventually went away for you if you are further along than me.  Did anything help?  Did you go to therapy?  Did you learn new ways to manage it?  Did it just go away? I really want to hear your stories.

 

5'10", and I'm just getting started, but this is how it's gone so far:

320 - 24W/3x
300 - 22W/2-3x
285 - 20W/1-2x
265 - 18W/1x

I bought one pair of size 16W jeans, but I think that was just a fluke.

Agreed!  And 1/4 cup is actually SEVENTY beans!!!

I wish I had your NUT. Perhaps he/she would like to see you be able to take in the vits/minerals/nutrients from that much food, yet is also expecting you to exercise off 500 cals of it daily?

I am one of the (apparently few) VSG peeps who at 2.5 months out can happily taken down 1200 calories a day with no problem. I have lost 55 lbs, but it is really slowing down, and I am scared that I am going to stop losing and fail. I feel like I can't eat much in one sitting, but I can still eat often, and I am hungry to do so. I haven't incorporated exercise as well as I should. I feel like I'm at a crossroads here and I'm either going to make some changes and succeed, or, well, not.

Basically if I was like you and "fine with 600-800 cals a day", I would stick with it.

Ruggie, I think I wanna be your sidekick.

Sounds exactly like mine, she was a real peach about it.

Man, I had no idea that this was where she was at -- assuming of course it was her drug abuse problem, which they haven't confirmed yet. Damn, that is sad.