I didn't get to be MO because I gorged myself at the drive-thru or really binged. I got to be MO because for as long as I can remember, I probably ate an average of an extra 300-500 calories every single day. I always thought this was just a terrible habit, and something that I "liked to do". Now that I am Month 3 with my sleeve, I am realizing that it was more of a coping mechanism than I realized.
I have a really nice life. I have an incredible husband, two beautiful children, a successful business and a lovely home. I would say I probably just have the normal amount of daily stress that comes with being a wife, a Mom to two very little ones, and being the primary breadwinner/running a business.
This is my busy time of year at work. I am finding that for the last month I have been much more short tempered and easily annoyed. I also just have this generalized low-level feeling of anxiousness and worry, pretty much all the time. Nothing that is derailing my life or anything, but I am just keenly aware that it is there, like a little devil sitting on my shoulder. I can really see now how I used to have a bowl of cereal and a chocolate bar or something late in the evening, and it "made me feel better" -- it released some endorphins or some hormone or something that was very physical and very real. I'm sure it's like smoking, or anything else. Now that I don't have that outlet, that coping mechanism, I'm kind of becoming a real ***** I'm sure I'm not an easy-breezy person to be around right now. I kind of don't like being around me either.
I have never liked exercise. I haven't incorporated it into my new world successfully yet. And I remain unconvinced that exercise will replace my former anxiety-management crutch of FOOD.
I don't really know why I'm posting this. I guess I want to know that I'm not alone, and I want to know if this feeling eventually went away for you if you are further along than me. Did anything help? Did you go to therapy? Did you learn new ways to manage it? Did it just go away? I really want to hear your stories.