My sympathies for your loss and the neglect that led to your mothers  death.  Having lost my mother and sister  I know that there is nothing that can be said to make you feel better right now, its all just too painful to process, but just know that there are wonderful people on this forum with a wealth of experience and a willingness to share that experience or just listen.

Right now, be kind to yourself and as hard as it is, please try and take care of yourself, your mother would never have wanted your health to suffer because of what happened to her.

My prayers go out to you and your family.

Ceelions

Amen to Quillie's post - sounds like "he's just not that into you" and will add - he's just into using you.

Now I am an old (50) married broad, and I have been out of that "scene" for a long time, but some things don't change - so unless you're only interest in him is his availability for a booty call pass on the "oral" , if  its the booty call - have fun.

If its more than a booty call - then look around at the relationships of your  friends, family, acquaintences etc and ask yourself -have you ever ever heard of a serious relationship that started with "oral":

Don't let him play you -  911 men don't usually lack confidence, his saying that he  feels you're too good for him  sounds like manipulation to me.

You're beautiful and you're smart and worth so much more than just giving some guy "oral" on his terms.

I started it and was doing quite well - was pretty close to being able to run 30 minutes straight which was absolutely mind blowing for me.  Unfortunately, I had to stop when I was told I had arthritis in my knees.

Have you checked out the exercise forum - lots of great advice and info from those folks.

Good luck and happy running

Ceelions

p.s.   by the way - way to go on that amazing weight loss - your awesome

Hi there, I didn't tell most people that I had wls and at the beginning people were much more pushy about trying to get me to eat. It would depend on what the meal was (b/fast, lunch or dinner) but either way I would just use the excuse that I had a large or late meal before or that I was going out again for the next one.

It got easier after I had lost about 50 lbs and people started to notice the lbs gone.  Friends noticed the weight loss and stopped questioning and pushing, frenemies noticed the weight loss and pushed even harder.   Some asked why I was not eating the salad and I would just tell them that I always eat salads so want to try something different.  You will be surprised how many people don't even notice what you are eating.
 

Enjoy 
 

wow - u must feel so proud of yourself 

ps. love the hair


Ceelions

Thanks everyone i'll call the dr. this a.m.

Ceelions

Hi there, can't help you there 'cause I live in Canada and we have different stores, just wanted to commiserate with you.   After 2 people told me that I needed some "pick-up" I have spent hours looking for bras that fit properly and don't cost a fortune, doesn't help that for now at least I am an unusual bra size - very frustrating.