Sunday, November 12, 2017

Weight: 131.8
Macros: Cals - 1,427, Carbs - 174, Fats - 34, Protein - 86, Fiber - 24
Veggies/Fruits (goal 8): 8
Sleep (goal 8 hours): 8.5 hours
Exercise: None

Weight is back down. Apparently, my body does NOT like riding long distances in cars!

Yesterday's 8 V/Fs came from black beans, spinach/kale, chiles, avocado, red seedless grapes, potatoes, carrots, green beans, and strawberries.

Today will include some housework, laundry, a walk in town, and book club reading. I didn't walk yesterday, but plan to do so today.

Recently I saw a Maya Angelou quote I'd somehow never read before. And here it is, just because I like it so much: "Do the best you can until you know better. Then when you know better, do better." That's one great proverb, eh? :)

Weight 117.5, calories 1488. Feeling like I need some good bathroom time so true weight is probably a bit less.

We had a good birthday celebration with DH. The restaurant was wonderful: great service, ambiance and food. It is very cozy - sort of feels like you are dining in a home. Lots of candles and black linens. DH and I both had the short rib special and I have wonderful leftovers. DH enjoyed opening his gifts and was surprised by the picture of an iPod that I wrapped. A refurbished one is arriving this week (thank you for the suggestion Cecily).

All was good until around midnight. DH and I were sound asleep when my phone rang, DS is crying and wants me to come down to his sleeping quarters (finished basement). He was tired, just having come off of three long work days and his boyfriend apparently broke up with him via phone. So he was drinking wine with his sisters and lit into DSD for not being more present when he was younger and not spending enough time with eldest DD when she was dying. Basically because he was hurting he lashed out obviously wanting someone else to hurt too. So after talking to him about it, I spoke with his sisters for a bit and tried to go back to bed. No sleep of course, so I was back downstairs at 3 to read and found DSD crying over what her brother had said. Spent a lot of time talking about it and why he was angry (not necessarily justifiably because he didn't understand the situation). She feels she needs to talk it out with him at some point when they aren't tired and alcohol is not on board. DS can be stubborn about changing his mind especially about things he decided at that age, so I'm worried about what will come out of it. He actually has been getting closer to her (as we have), so I didn't realize that he still harbored those feelings.

Back up to bed around 4, possibly dozed for an hour or so, then I was up for good at 6:30. Both DDs have to be awakened at 7:30 and are leaving at 8.

Have a supportive Sunday!

Gee, Liz, I'm so sorry.

Thanks, Ann. Nothing like you guys are dealing with. DS is stubborn and overly emotional. Always has been. We saw a therapist for his temper when he was around 8 or so to help him develop some coping skills. We all agreed that his best and worst characteristic was his strong emotions (loves deeply, gets super angry and super happy, gets hurt easily, etc.).

Sounds like my DS#1!

Oh Liz, I am so sorry this happened. Sounds like the drama that happens between my kids and as Mom it is so hard to be in the middle of it all and support both sides! Hope you can get a nap in today!

Thanks Paula. I know you understand as I've seen the parallels between your children and mine as well.

Liz, this is heart wrenching all the way around. You are a good mom. I just wish you could get uninterrupted sleep.

I hope the iPod works out great! Change is inevitable, but if you can spare him some of the stress it's worth a try!

No weight today. I thought I did pretty well re: food yesterday until after dinner. Then I just got "old fashioned hungry"--remember that insatiable bottomless pit feeling? Yup, felt that way. DH and I smoked a pork shoulder (again--was so good last week!) for bbq sandwiches for dinner, put with potato salad and homemade corn pudding and brownies. Small portions were fine, but second dinner a couple hours later kind of defeats the purpose!

OU won! Gee I wish there wasn't a Big XII championship game this year. They will likely have a rematch with TCU at a neutral site. Although the alternative would probably be a rematch with our instate rival and that's just kind of gut-wrenching.

Today is DH's birthday. I think we're just going to chill out and then for dinner he's requested chicken fried steak, mashed potatoes, and green beans. The kids will come and after we're going to see Daddy's Home 2.

Ann-Love that quote! Sometimes aren't we hard on ourselves in retrospect for something we said that in hindsight wasn't the best thing to say? I get caught up in my own head on replay. But as long as you're doing the best you know today, you can't do any better!!

Liz-Glad the dinner went well, but sorry about kid drama afterward. I don't know the ages of your kids, but my stepkids are 19 and almost-24. I'm trying to think of the most similar experience we've had, and there have definitely been times when they've lashed out at something else to avoid the real problem because they were either a) hurting or b) trying to distract us from something they'd done. Mostly the latter, though. Recently, DSS has accused us of showing his sister favoritism, as well as hurting his sister's feelings, mostly to avoid the fact that he has quit college twice (and this has come up because now she's started college and he didn't want to be left behind). Good for you for being patient with everyone's feelings. It can take a lot of discipline to do that!