Good Morning!

The scale monster got me this morning. I weighed in and am down 4 lbs already!! Whoo hoo! Wow, that tells me Ive really been blind and must have convinced myself that I wasnt being that bad. Im on a mission. Im calling it 40 before 40. I turn 40 this year (not until October) and I plan on losing a minimum of 40 lbs this year. Im finishing the loss and working to maintenance. This foolishness is over!

Went to Zumba last night and half way thru my blood sugar dropped. I was working hard too. I could feel my legs getting shaky and started getting the tunnel vision so we had to leave early. My 17 year old daughter comes with me on Weds. I had a hard candy mint in the car and that helped until I could get home to dinner.

Today's eats:

Coffee w/ cream
Banana
Garden salad and Zone Bar
Apple and cheese stick
Dinner will be BLT on Flatbread wrap.
WW Giant fudge bar

Found these wonderful Flatbreads by La Tortilla Factory  They actually taste GOOD! I could eat it plain. They have 4-7 grams of fiber and 7-9 grams of protein depending on if you get the whole wheat or traditional. I have traditional, because I didnt see wheat. Highly recommend!

Thanks Tess!! Im excited (:

Forgot to tell you good luck with your sleep study! I didnt sleep at all for mine and I was afraid they would make me come back, but apparently they got enough. I wouldnt wish a sleep study on anyone. Hope they find something to help you get some sleep!

I go weeks on and off sleeping/insomnia since rny. All in all, I'd still take the insomnia over 298 lbs.

I havent been able to get any of my docs to let me try any Rx. I have my own ****tail I make when I cant sleep. One benadryl and  two OTC sleeping pills dpending on how bad it is. I'll still wake up at 2:30-3am though. I understand how awful it is...then I stress cause I have to get up for work and at that point you NEVER fall back to sleep! I try to stay up later, but Im just so tired I'll fall asleep and not even realize it.

Good morning!

Here is my plan! Didnt get to do Tao Bo yesterday but I am going to do it right after I post this. Hopefully my 4 year old gets a kick out of watching me do it :) There is no shame or judgment with my sweet boy! Yesterday was a basically normal food day and I ate less than 1000 calories. That seems so little, boarderline unhealthy, but I'm not going to worry too much about it.  I am very scared of eating any carbs (bread, pasta, etc) moving forward. I know that the carbs I was eating trigger cravings so I am scared to try even the Whole wheat versions.  What do you guys do with carbs? Do you eat oatmeal and healthy carbs?  

 Here is the meal plan today.

Prebfast: Protien coffee
Bfast: 1 egg 1 egg white, 3 oz greek yogurt mixed with 1/2 pumpkin.
Snack: Hummus and bell pepper
Lunch: Mini Turkey Meatloaf
Snack: Starbucks Iced coffee with splenda and nf milk
Dinner: Another Turkey Meatloaf (School night)
Snack at school: Prob a laughing cow with celery?
Night snack: Small serving of oatmeal (maybe...I've been really wanting it)or maybe I'll make protein oatmeal balls

Have a great day!

Good morning... glad you got some rest... Good luck with the sleep study

I worked late again last night... by the time I went home was 11 p.m... needed to rewind... so I had problem getting up this morning... was up at 8:20... grrr  really late to work... but that's OK. When I am there by myself -I really can have things done..

But since the day before I have sugar crash, I was hungry all day... Hate that.  And I worked so late.. and got stressed... (bills got messed up... ) so after adding all together.. I ate close to 2000 calories... The only good part on that is that today I am not really that hungry... and will watch for the rest of the week to make sure I get no more than 1000 daily (to compensate).  Smaller portions, less fat.. will be good.

On a VERY GOOD note.... even though I was really stressed ... I did not stop by a store to get wine... even in December - I may try to "medicate myself" (the anxiety - bills issue) and get wine to not feel the stress.  And the thought crossed my mind... but only for minute or 2.  So happy I didn't have to fight the urge... there is hope for me.. And the things I overate on - are still good choices: proteins, protein bars (yea,,, need to stop them), cottage cheese.  Still - too many calories... but - in the past - I would either drink or before RNY - gorge myself on sweets.. 

Today eats:  (decarbing again)
coffee+ coconut milk
coffee protein shake
tuna with little mustard
protein muffin 
protein shake
flat-out wrap w/ cheese sticks (2) and Canadian bacon (dinner)
meatloaf

Thank you.  You may have no idea how big step for me that is. At one time I was on a fst track to become an alcoholic.   But this week I knwo that even though I still like wine, I don't need it.   

Having a great day. My 38th Anniversary. We have a cruise planned for the occasion later in the year. Meal for today a little more but not disasterous. Here's what I'm eating today:

Food Name	Amount	Unit	Cals	Fat (g)	Carbs (g)	Prot (g)	Delete
		Total	1,406	69.6	85.0	103.0
Tea, Dieters/cup		serving grams kg lb oz	0	0.0	0.0	0.0
Water, tap		cup fl oz grams kg lb oz	0	0.0	0.0	0.0
Egg, whole, boiled		cup egg extra large jumbo large medium slice small grams kg lb oz	154	10.6	1.1	12.5
Milk/AlmondVanUnswt/cup		serving grams kg lb oz	35	2.5	1.0	1.0
Cheese,light-string,FitnActive1pc		serving grams kg lb oz	60	2.5	1.0	8.0
Salad/OrganicSpringMix/3cups		serving grams kg lb oz	20	0.0	3.0	2.0
Tomatoes, raw		cup cup, cherry tomato cup, chopped or sliced oz, raw, yields Italian tomato cherry large whole (3" dia) medium whole (2-3/5" dia) medium slice (1/4" thick) plum tomato small whole (2-2/5" dia) thick/large slice (1/2" thick) wedge (1/4 of medium tomato) thin/small slice grape tomato grams kg lb oz	12	0.1	2.7	0.6
Cheese/SalsaCheddar/1slice		serving grams kg lb oz	55	4.5	0.0	3.5
Dressing/CucumberRanch/2Tbsp		serving grams kg lb oz	120	12.0	3.0	0.0
Coffee, decaffeinated		fl oz coffee cup (6 fl oz) mug (8 fl oz) grams kg lb oz	2	0.0	0.4	0.4
Tea, Dieters/cup		serving grams kg lb oz	0	0.0	0.0	0.0
Creamer/Amaretto		serving grams kg lb oz	70	3.0	10.0	0.0
Pineapple, raw		cup, diced oz yields cubic inch fruit slice (3-1/2" dia x 3/4" thick) thin slice (3-1/2" dia x 1/2" thick) grams kg lb oz	74	0.2	19.6	0.8
Orange, raw		cup, sections oz yields large (3-1/16" dia) medium (2-5/8" dia) section or slice small (2-3/8" dia) grams kg lb oz	45	0.1	11.3	0.9
Cracklin/Curls/2ozbag		serving grams kg lb oz	360	28.0	0.0	24.0
GreekYogurt/Fage2%,7oz		serving grams kg lb oz	150	4.0	8.0	20.0
TunaCreations/Sweet&Spicy		grams kg lb oz	158	1.1	9.0	24.8
LeanShake/GNC/CookienCream		serving grams kg lb oz	90	1.0	15.0	4.5
		Total	1,406	69.6	85.0	103.0

Hope all of you are having a great groundhog day. I have for many years. Hope your sleep study goes well.  I had sleep ap before losing weight and faithfully used my machine, don't need it now.
Z

Thanks Deb, I would just like to be in Onederland.
Z