to lose an additional 110lbs. 10 lbs at a time.

Hello all. Its been a little over a week since I last did a post. I have been going through quite a bit of ups and downs. Last week I found out that I did not get a promotion that I was hoping to get. But I am okay with it NOW. Last week was a different thing. I also went to see Joel Osteen at Madison Square Garden and had a wonderful time. I realized that I have been looking so much at what has been going wrong that I failed to see and acknowledge all the good that has been in my life. I have wonderful parents who love me unconditionally, brothers and sisters that love me unconditionally. Friends that are always there for me. And I have lost over 170lbs!!!!!! Since last Sunday I have lost about 6lbs. and that was a great feeling. I also have done the Breast Cancer walk and also have walked quite a bit by my standards in the last couple of days. That is felt wonderful, i want to keep this up and get more into exercising. I want to continue to lose the weight. I have only 120 pounds left to reach goal and I have all the faith in the world that I will achieve this goal. I also realized something that I never thought would happen since my decision to have this surgery. The last time that I actually saw my surgeon was right after my 1 year. This means that I have not seen him in two years. No blood tests to check my levels, no update to see how I am doing. What hurts the most is that my Dr.'s office hasn't even tried to contact me to see if I was ok. That hurts a lot. I know why I haven't been back. Other than the fact when it came time for my 2 year update, the office called and cancelled and asked that I call them back to reschedule. They also did this same thing the year before for my 1 year update. It was at my 1 year appointment, my DR. told me he was happy with my weight loss and that if i didn't lose another pound he would be ok!!!!! Can you believe this. Here I was at about 317 pounds and my surgeon was okay with that. I was devastated. And from that point on I lost another 45 pound since October 2005. I truly believe that at that time, I gave up. If my surgeon was giving up on me by telling me that he was okay with me still being super morbidly obese, that told me that he had no confidence in my getting down to my personal goal. My Lord, I am still considered a candidate for surgery and I had surgery. I see now that I did not have to give up, I needed to fight with all I had in my to strive for my goal. I DID NOT DO THIS and now it will be just that much harder to reach my goal. What goal is that you ask, i want to be overweight, not obese, or morbidly obese. Please everyone give me strength so that I will reach my goal to be a healthier wiser woman. Any encouragement would be appreciated!!!!! I am blessed!!!!

Hello all, it has been way too long since I have posted.  i always say that I will be better at posting but that never seems to happen.  What I have realized now that I am so close to my 3rd anniversary of my surgery that when I stop updating my profile is when i know that I am messing up and not doing what I know I should be doing to lose the additional weight to reach my goal.  I wonder if its still possible to reach my overall goal of 170 pounds.  Can you believe that I truly have not weighed myself in over a year?  That is a HUGE NO NO!!!!!  My really good sisterfriend Inspire actually bought me a scale for my new apartment because she said that there was no reason that I not check my weight on a more regular basis.  This will allow me to keep a better handle on if I gain a few pounds.  I was shocked when I realized that I had gained almost 25 pounds over the course of the last year.  I went on Atkins to lose the weight that I had gained.  I was so happy that I had gotten back down but then man problems but my life in a tailspin and I stopped doing what I knew would allow me to lose additional weigh so that I could get closer to my mini goal.   So, I am back with a vengeance and will stay on track and continue to update my profile with the highs and the lows.  to be continued......

August 29, 2006
Hello all, It  has been a very long time since I last updated.  I am doing okay.  Work is VERY stressful but I am hanging in there.  I am desperately trying to relocate to the NYC area but have not had too much success with finding a position in Higher Education.  I am realizing that it is still all about who you know when you know them in finding a position in this field.  Maybe had I put myself out there to meet people I would have a suitable job.  But I knew that my self-esteem was less than when I was at my highest weight.  The surgery has been very helpful but people continue to see the large woman.  Forget about all that I have accomplished and what my experiences have been within this field.  I'm still the fat candidate.  But I will find the job for me with the correct salary!

As far as my weighloss, I was doing well the last couple of weeks.  I went on the Atkins type diet and I lost 16lbs. in two weeks.  I then got super stressed at work and ate a slice of pizza and then a donut and the diet went out the door.  I know that I am a emotional eater so I should have paced myself.  But I didn't so now I need to get back on track again!!!! 

I am currently at 280lbs. for a total weight loss of -171 lbs.  I am so happy about this!!!!  I would love to be at 250 by my 2nd anniversary, so wish me all the luck and prayers you can!!!!!  Well I better go, I will be taking some pics and will post them soon!  Be Blessed.


 



 

June 27, 2006

  Hello all, It's been a great many months since I have last updated my profile.  I have just returned from the BAF Chicago Meet and Greet and can I tell you that I had a ball.  BAF has been a god send to me and my well being.  I have had many ups and downs with my failure to stay on track with my weight loss.  But they have been there supporting me and giving me support when I needed it the most.  I will forever be in the debt of this great forum.

I must give some special shout-out to my divas and friends for life:  miss 203, Sassy Sista and Robin Birdsong.  These three woman have brought me into the fold and I am better for knowing them.  We had a ball tearing Chi-Town up and I will never forget it.  Much love to Frenchy as well for being our male escort for the weekend!!!

I had the pleasure of meetiing quite a few new people as well:  Ms. Deri, Mona, Mikos (and cutie pie brother Thadious) are some of the genuine people I have met in quite some time.  There were many more but these few people were the best!!

This meet and greet has re-invigorated my mind to make it to my goal.  I still have over 100lbs. to go but I will not give up.  One other thing that I promise to do is to update my profile more often.  I promise to all that I will continue to update the ups and downs of my weightloss journey.  At this time I am hovering around 294-296lbs.  This has been fro the last few months.  I am still losing inches and that keeps me uplifted.  I am currently in a solid 22/24 bottom and still in a 26/28 top.  I have not however attempted to try on a 22/24 top yet.  My outfit that I wore for Donna's 50th B-day party was a 26/28 top and a 22/24 bottom(which actually was big around the waist).  I was very happy that it was lose, it gives me joy anytime something gets too big.

Well I better get to bed.  Long boring day at work tomorrow I am sure!!!  I will update again very soon!!  Blessing to you all.



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