6/9/08

Okay, sorry for the incomplete last entry, but I wrote a lot and it didn’t save because I ran out of space…and yep…I was too lazy to go back..so I left it as is…lol But now I’m back and have a little time..so let’s do the run down shall we….

I don’t know how much I weigh because I haven’t been on a scale in a minute..but last time I checked I was at about 202..hopefully by now I am in the 100’s :D! And let me tell you something, the only time I weigh myself is when I am at a place with a scale..i.e; my mamma’s house…and for about a month I was over there like EVERY DAY..jumping on that scale! And for about I month..I went between 202 and 205…drove me nuts…and THIS IS WHY I DO NOT OWN A SCALE!! Lol But at whatever weight I am at now…doesn’t matter, because my inches are coming down in a terrific fashion! I still have a problem with trying on smaller sizes (still intimidates me..so I say fluck it..and buy something too darn big and that will be even bigger in 2 weeks…a total waste of money). So this weekend I was at Burlington . I was supposed to be there just to get something for my daughter ;) which I did…but then all of a sudden I was in the women’s section..can’t remember HOW I got there…lol Anyway…I didn’t know Burlington had such great deals…I’ve never really shopped there except for items for the house. Anyway..I came across the cutest little skirt..and it was only 6.00! I picked it up ran to the dressing room..slide it on just to see how it would look…it was nice fitting..a little loose in the waist, but for 6.00 I didn’t give a heyll. Well baby, do you NOT KNOW that when I took that bad fella off to check the size (when I picked it up originally I did the whole, hold it up in the air and see if the waist is big enough for me to even amuse myself by trying to squeeze into, deal)..it was a dayum size 16!!!! Oh my word…do you KNOW the last time I was a darn 16!!??!! I was in maybe grade school! Oh my!!! His blessing’s continue to fall on me! Just 9 short months ago..I was squeezing into a stretch 32! Now I’m a 16…babyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy bye! J

On the food front…I still don’t consume bread..because it gets stuck. Learned recently that (even though is a RARITY that I even eat it) that my body HATES fried chicken! Thought I would treat myself to some over the weekend, cause I really needed to feed my craving, uh NO…that would be a negative…that chicken hurt like hell going down! Hadn’t even reached the pouch yet before it started paining in my chest! Well that was the end of that…had to throw that good ole chicken right out of the door! But oh well, things like that tend to keep me on my toes…and for that, I am thankful.

Sugar is still iffy with my body…I still take it in small doses…no more the 7-12 grams a day. Everything that I have is sugar free in my house…candies, drinks, everything. There are a few things that I buy that aren’t, but I still watch the sugar..because I still dump something terrible when I consume too much of it...but again, this is something that keeps me on my toes, so for it, I am ever so greatful. But my pouch is so some timey…I ate some ice cream (a ice cream bar that had 12 grams of sugar, because that SF ice cream is just plain ole nasty!) and I was fine. The next day, I had one of my granola bars (7 grams) and my tummy started acting up and aching as though I was going into dump mode…I was like what in the heyll? So it’s a roll of the dice with this here thing.

My food intake over all…is still iffy. Some days I can eat a lot, others I can’t…but that is normal…did you hear me?? I had said…that..dammit it’s NORMAL to begin to be able to consume more food, man!! So stop flipping out when you can eat 2 dayum chicken nuggets!  Lol…that cracks me up er time I read something of the sort on the boards. J

Attention is great, but doesn’t faze me. Yes, I get a lot more attention now then I did before. Men, go out of there way to speak to me…or some other weird things that I won’t mention…but it certainly is different when you loose weight I tell you. People wanna come and sit they azzes right next to you on the train (I miss my darn personal space!). When I took up 1 ½ seats..people avoided me like the plague…now…plop right on down next to me. Women start conversations with me for no apparent reason…and I don’t mind…but when I was heavier…I was invisible to some folks…could say good morning and not get a response..or get a grunt. Now, people smile when they see me..and I smile back and keep it moving. I don’t know..maybe it was MY attitude that got the reaction that I received? I was not happy at 355 and more then likely it showed..now I am glowing…and it shows. So maybe I was just getting back what I put out there, huh??

Let’s see what else…oh….yeah…my God is an awesome God…yes sir! I was laid off, hired AND promoted all in the same day! These have been a trying last few months..but baby..my faith NEVER wavered. Now, because of the better gig, it’ll keep me from attending the m&g this month, but such is life…take care and I’ll be posting new pics soon (yes I’m loving the camera…it’s comes with the territory!)

“It’s been a long time coming, but I KNEW a change was gonna come…..”