Thank GOD Christmas day is over !!!  LOL  I am SOO TIRED OF FOOD !!!!  UGH !!!  Who would EVER thought that they would ever hear me say that.   I am being so honest.   I am so ready to get these extra lbs off that I have gained over Thanksgiving and Christmas.   Yes....I have NOT gotten off the weight that I gained over Thanksgiving yet.   Life has been hecktic since then.    Parties constantly well....not constant.   I guess I got so wrapped up in baking those SF cookies for my support breakfast that I didn't concentrate yet on getting that weight off.   I am going to work super hard and get it off and  hopefully a few more lbs too.    I am also going to start logging my food in a journal.    I know that helps too.   I want to get more off than I put on over the holidays.    That being said....it is hard to do...extremely hard being 3 yrs post op RNY !!!!    The weight just wants to stick to my body like glue...but hey....I AM IN CONTROL now...it is NOT controlling me any longer.   I love my RNY and all my results.   I have worked my butt off WAY TOO HARD to let this food issue control me again.   That will NEVER ( by God's grace that is ) happen again.    Now....with the new year soon at hand....I have to get back with the program.    Thanks to everyone on OH for all their love and support to me.   Trust me....I am a very normal person who battles these weight demons on a daily basis....sometimes even hour by hour basis.   I am going to the mall in a little while...not to shop but to walk off some of the extra calories that my body consumed yesterday.    I pray that everyone had a fantasic holiday and will have  a great new year.

WOW.....less than 2 weeks now till Christmas.   I will be SOOO GLAD when it is over !!!   LOL   I love Christmas time more than any other time of the year but the foods are KILLING ME !!!!   UGH !!!!   I dumped from licking my fingers dipping peanut butter crackers for my son in chocolate.    Then I dumped from tasting other things.   I am so darn TIRED of dumpiing.   LOL   No fun at all !!!!   My tummy is hurting as I am sitting her typing this.   LOL   Seems like I would learn to wash my hands instead of licking my fingers.   OH well...hopefully one day I will learn.    Well next week I go to Dr. Kim for my 3 yr check up.   I am so excited about getting to do the swallow test and check the size of my pouch.   I know that it is bigger than it was in the beginning....but I don't think it has stretched too much.    I do dread drinking the barrum though.   UGH !!!  Hate that stuff although everyone has said it isn't too bad this time.   We will see what  "I" think.   LOL   I do have to diet ( although that is going to be hard with all the holiday parties and all ) before I go in.   I am NOT really happy with the numbers the scale is telling me at this moment.   I have gained about 5 lbs.    Hate that with a passion.   SO scared still of regaining the weight.   I gain weight so very easy.   Everyone tells me I am CRAZY for getting on the scale so much....but hey....I AM IN CONTROL of my weight now.   It does NOT control me anylonger.   I know when I have a gain it is due to me making dump retarded choices.    Yeah.....I think that they are RETARDED choices...because I know better !!!   I am looking forward to Dr. Kim's Christmas party for all his patients tomorrow night.   Don't know yet though if my hubby will go with me.   Knowing him....he probably won't.   He is not a real social person like I have become.   Maybe he will come with me.    I better go.....my son has a wrestling meet in less than a hour.  Have a wonderful evening.

Where has time gone???   Can't believe it is almost Christmas.   I have done a little shopping.   My 2 sons that live here in Texas won't let me know what they want.   Geezzz  What is a Mom to do?   LOL   They will get either gift cards or money if they don't tell me.   My son who lives in Ca. told me what to get him this  year.   I about feel into the floor.   LOL  He always wants money.    Well this year he said he wants a GPS like I bought myself.    SO I went right out and got him one.    LOL   I am going to remake a quilt for him that he has had since he was a teenager.    My great aunt ( who is now deceased ) made it for him.   He carried it all 4 yrs he was in the Navy.    He brought it home about 3 or 4 yrs ago and wanted my Mom to repair it.   It was falling apart.   She was going to toss it into the trash and I begged her not to do that.   Well....after she died almost 2 yrs ago we were cleaning out her garage and there it was.   The fabric that the top was made from was rotting from age.   My aunt had no money and always made her quilts from clothes that relatives gave her that they no longer could wear.     So I took the quilt home with me.   A month or so ago I ripped off the entire top and I am going to remake the quilt top for him ( I am NOT telling him in case I fail LOL   I have NEVER done this before ).   But I am just cutting squares and sewing them together then going to sew the original back and new front together.   I think that it will work.   Hope so anyway.   He is VERY SENTIMENTAL...just like his MOM.   LOL  I never throw anything out !!!  

My weight has crept up a litle bit over the holidays.   I am working really hard to get those last couple of lbs off before we start again with Christmas.    I have to go to Dr. Kim on Dec 19 for my 3 yr check up.   I am still pretty pleased with my weight even though I have gained a few lbs.    I have been more successful with my WLS than any other diet that I have ever been on in my life.   Who would have thought that I would have kept my weight off for 3 yrs.    I am so happy about that....but I will be happier when those unwanted couple of lbs will be gone again.    Hope you all are having a great holiday season.

Well yesterday was my 3 yr. anniversary of my RNY !!!!  Can't believe that it has already been 3 yrs.   What a totally lifechanging 3 yrs it has been too.   I have loved every minute of it...well almost that is.    LOL   Just like other people that are a "normal" size....I have to fight the weight demon on a daily basis.    I will ONLY allow myself to gain 5 lbs.   When those are on me....I diet till they come off.   This is a journey that I would do over and over and over again !!!!   I love being a thinner person.   Not that I am thin...because I don't classify myself as being "THIN"...but so much smaller and healthier than before my WLS.   I shutter at the thought of where I would be today without having my WLS.   I would probably by now top the scale at about 350.   I want to just sit and cry thinking about it.  I never thought that 3 yrs ago when I had my surgery that I would be in a size 8.   When you are in a 30/32 top and 26/28 bottom a size 8 zip jeans and 4/6 or small pull on pant seems like something unreal to try to achieve.   But yet here I am.   It is a shame that when I look in the mirror...the ole fat girl eyes try to tell me that I am HUGE.   I know that they are lying to me though.   I can tell that by the size of my clothes.    All I can say is I don't regreat anything that I have gone through.   Not my RNY.....Not my belt lipectomy ( or lower body lift ) nor the lipo to my tummy that I had done in July.   I don't regreat the money that I was out of pocket to get the plastic surgery either.   It was SOO WORTH IT ALL !!!! The self esteem....self worth........me coming out of my shell and becoming the out going person that I am was soo worth it too.   I am NO LONGER the shy girl...scared to talk to anyone sitting in a corner of the room.   My WLS has given me a freedom to become outgoing and talk to others about my experience with my WLS and a new healthier lifestyle.   Food no longer rules me...but I RULE it !!!!  IT is a fantastic lifestyle to have !!!!!

Well.....last night I got home from a WONDERFUL OH Conference in Houston.   I had SUCH A GOOD TIME....meeting such a wonderful group of people that I have talked to so much on the TMB.   The speakers were so good.....such a great time that was had by all.   The Meet and Greet was great and so was casino night....too bad that I am NOT good at blackjack or any other card game for that matter.   LOL   BUt all in all I still had a wonderful time.    Thanks so much for everyone who put in all the work to make that conference the HUGE SUCCESS that it was !!!!  Love you guys....even though I came home with a weight gain !!!!


Hugs and blessings ~~~ Vivian