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Its been 4 months since my plastic surgery, and at first it was hard to wrap my head around the new me. I often would take that second look in the mirror to make sure it really was me. Im so happy that I made this change in my life. 

I havent reached my orignal goal weight of 130 but I  have reached the other goals I had and one was to have at least 1/2 the clothes in my closet be a single digit and to be able to look good in a pair of sexy panties.  To feel good in clothes. I almost had the girls lifted and  sized down when I had surgery but Im glad now that I didnt. I like was see and i havent honestly been able to say that for over 15 years, its a feeling of freedom that I thought I would never feel again. 

How is life as a banster ?? I have no regrets getting the band, I havent had any complications but I have had some frustrating moments. More the past 6 month then any other time. Lots of acid refex and a very Fickeled band. Days I can eat my normal portions of 4 oz ,days I can eat more and then days I cant eat at all, just liquids. I dont understand it but I just keep moving forward. I have less in my band today then I ever have. Its an intersting life we live as bandsters but its all worth it.
 

Dec 24, 2006

Wel I made it through plastic surgery. It was a little nerve racking waiting for the day to arrive then gettng up at 3:15 am to head for the hospital was a little rough.Itit was the longest 1 1/2 drive I have ever had to make. Then once we got checked in at 5:30 it wasnt until 7:30 that they wheeled me into the OR. That was the scariest feeling laying there looking up at the large lights in the room before they put me out. Surgery was under 3 hours. They didnt have to move my port and from what they tell me I did really well. I woke up in recovery at 11:30 am but wasnt able to keep my eyes open until around 1pm. Im glad I chose to stay the night the first 12hours were a little rough, the morphine kept me from being all that alert and the perkeset made me throw up.

I came home the following day around 2pm still in pain and very sleepy from all the meds. I've been home for two days now and things are going well. Its hard for me to sleep on my back so sleeping is only so so. Im  only taking 1 pain pill every 4 hours. Im happy with the results, Im still very swollen, but the area between my two hips is so flat I dont think I have ever seen my hips. I wasnt expecting to look like a modle i was only expecting not to have to lift my skin to wash under it any more. I cant wait until the swelling goes down more and i get into a nice fitting pair of jean, I bet the results will shine then.

Im off to rest.

I cant believe that its been over two years since my surgery. People ask me if I would do it again and I would in a heart beat. It hasnt been without its sacrafices or frustrations but it by far better then feeling hoplessly heavy. To be a normal size is something most people take for grant, but for those of us who have been on the heavy side most of our lives we so appreciate words like"you're getting so skinny"  its like sweet music to our ear that just makes us want to dance on the table tops.

Eventho I havent met the goal I set for my self and it bugs me, I try to relax about it . Its so hard to learn to accept our own image when we've had so many years of not liking what we saw in the mirror. 

Im having a tummy tuck in December and Im hoping that is will help me feel better about how my body looks.Although I do feel like Im cheating a little as it will help me get a little closer to my goal. But mostly Im excited about the possibilities. To wear cute panties again, I and look hot in them, I just cant even imagine :) ok well maybe I can imagin, I should say I just cant wait.